I started hearing things in my mind like mobile phones ringing that were not real. They sounded real to me and I would say 'Whose phone is ringing?' and people would say no phone ringing and look at me strangely. When I cottoned on to this I just accepted it was in my mind and told myself to ignore it. I started to see tracers in the air, like little stars in the air that would evaporate within seconds. They were quite cool but by this point I just wanted it to end and was conscious of having a stroke or something. The worst things were the shooting electric shocks that would come out of nowhere and move my body involuntarily with these huge jolts. One morning after no sleep I was holding a cup of coffee and out of nowhere I just shook my arm and slung the lot across the floor. This bird I was with must have thought I was bonkers.
I had a close friend years ago that was taking 40-50mg of Valium a day for around 2 years. When he stopped taking them he was fine for a couple days and then started having seizures. One time we were standing in his backyard watching football about 3-4 months after he got clean, all the sudden he collapses and smacks his head on the concrete patio, the sound his head made hitting the concrete is something i can still hear in my mind today, it was terrible. I thought he was dead but he was just having a seizure. His wife had to be with him everywhere he went for almost a year, he would randomly blackout. That's why i'll never take that stuff again, i had a script for it years ago for general anxiety, but i only took it at night to help me sleep off and on.
I dated this girl a long time ago who was on Klonopin for a long time, over 2 years. She had been in a bad relationship with this guy and he was literally stalking her all over town. She was having anxiety attacks because she was scared of him; he'd just show up places where she was and cause trouble and he was violent. He ended up getting thrown in jail for drinking and driving, so she approached me about stopping the drugs; to be honest i dated her for 3 months and didn't know she was taking anything. Well, she tapered down slowly over a 5-6 week period and suddenly had a freaking emotional meltdown. Like she would cry ALL the time about everything. It was insane, you could barely talk to her about anything and she would get emotional as hell. I don't know how much of the stuff she was taking, but it messed her up badly. We stopped talking for a while because she was just nutty. She ended up living with her aunt for like 6 months in order to get help. After 2-3 months she was fine and we started dating again, but damn she was like an emotional rollercoaster for months.
