Brian, it's okay to just admit that you were crying—and it is obvious that you were crying. There's no shame in admitting that your emotions sometimes get the better of you. I mean, you have ADHD and an anxiety disorder that you attempt to ameliorate with cannabis and other compounds, so it's not easy.
I don't think you should be made fun of for this. The skateboard video demonstrated that you were at least attempting to follow your therapist's advice and remain calm and composed. Unfortunately, you lost control a little towards the end and turned into a castrato, but I'm sure this is a far cry (no pun intended) from the days of having nervous breakdowns in front of the police and getting arrested after they came to do a welfare check on you and your girlfriend. They said you were visibly upset, so is it possible that this lachrymose mugshot was from that particular encounter?
Just last week you had yet another emotional meltdown on Getbig and vowed to never come back, but after a good cry and a moment to compose yourself, here you are. This is progress. Are you fully in control of your impulses yet? No, probably not, but you're trying. I applaud you for this.
