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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #25 on: November 01, 2021, 10:10:31 PM »
life without hope is dead.

'death' is infinitely worse than life.

the damned - moments of torment... before the terror:

Sir Francis Newport allowed his name to be used on a brand of cigarettes. On his deathbed he cried out: “Oh eternity. Oh eternity”. And he uttered a groan of inexpressible horror as a cried out, “Oh the insufferable pains of hell, forever, forever.

Sir Walter Scott the skeptic said: “Until this moment I thought there was neither a God nor a hell. Now I know that there are both, and I am doomed to perdition by the just judgment of the Almighty.”

Adams, the infidel said: “I’m lost, lost, lost. I am damned forever.” His agony was so great that as he died, he tore the hair from his head.
 
Thomas Paine, one of America’s great patriots, in his book: “The age of reason” ridiculed the Christian religion. He slowly lost his friends. He left America and while in England came to a premature death. On his deathbed he said to a friend ‘I would give worlds if I had them, if the ‘Age of Reason’ had never been published. Oh Lord help me. Christ help me. You stay with me. It is hell to be left alone.”

H.G. Wells, historian and the ‘apostle of modernism’, and a determined atheist: “Here I am at age 64, still searching for peace of mind. It is a hopeless dream

Queen Elizabeth I, grabbed her physician by the sleeve and pulled him down over her bed and said: “Half of the British Empire for six month of life.” He could not even give her six minutes,and she died.

Charles Darwin, on his deathbed: “I regret that I suggested a theory, and that gullible men gobbled it up, as though it were fact. I never intended that.

Sir Julian Huxley, English evolutionist, biologist and staunch atheist, on his deathbed: “So it is true after all, so it is true after all.”

Voltaire, one of history’s best known atheists, often stated that “by the time I’m buried, the Bible will be non-existent.”
His last words were: “I am abandoned by God and man; I shall die and go to hell alone.” His condition had become so terrible that his associates were afraid to approach his bedside, and as he passed away, his nurse said that for all of the wealth in Europe, she would never watch another infidel die.

Talleyrand (called the most brilliant mind of his generation) when asked about his condition while on his deathbed replied: “I am suffering the pangs of the damned.

Clarence Darrow, the Scopes Trial lawyer in the famous 1925 debate, while on his deathbed asked several clergymen to “please intercede for me with the Almighty. During my life I have spoken many times against Christians, and I now realize that I may have been wrong.

Nietzsche, well known atheist, and tard, who had great influence on Adolph Hitler, went insane during the last few years of his life. We can only speculate what his last words may have been, but they were surely horrific.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #26 on: November 01, 2021, 10:13:40 PM »

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #27 on: November 01, 2021, 10:42:28 PM »
Trust me on this,back in the day when I was drinking and drugging heavy,my life was so miserable that if I didn`t wake up I could give two hits.

Actually I took 97 OTC sleeping pills in an effort to end my less than stellar existance.....never fell asleep ....not a wink but hallucinated for over 24 hours.....had a good mind to write the company and tell them that their take 2 for a safe and restful nights sleep could kiss my ass.

Tell you about the hallucinations at another time......very trippy and very fuckin scary.

Been through a lot.....105 degree temperature with Hepatitus B for 7 days in the hospital.....106 % is death.....didn`t give a fuck then either.

Lost 40 pounds due to Colotis......I`m not big so losing 40 pounds had me looking wraithlike.


Flash forward a couple year ago.....lung CANCER...........scared shitless....I have no money and am poorer than Josh,but dammit I wanted to live so bad I threw away my doubt in God and prayed like a bitch......now it`s in remission and I thank God many times over during the course of every day.

When you die,it`s finito like a squirell who got hit by a car......lights out motherfacker.


All the younger guys here would say,I dont care if I die who wants to be 60 or 70.....well smarten the fuck up cuz if you reach those ages you`re still the same cat you always were, just older....you will not want to die trust me unless you are in contant pain from a debilitating diease.

Hey Josh if you kill yourself,`ll fucking kill you. ;D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #28 on: November 01, 2021, 10:55:06 PM »
Trust me in this,back in the day when I was drinking and drugging heavy,my life was so miserable that if I didn`t wake up I could give two hits.

Actually I took 97 OTC leeping pill in n effort to end my less than tellar existance.....never fell asleeop for a wink but hallucinated for over 24 hours.....had a good mind to write the comppany and tell them that their take 2 for a safe and retful nights leep could ki my ass.

Tell you about hallucinating at another time......very trippy and very fuckin g cary.

Been through a lot.....105 degree temperature with HepB for 7 days in the hospital.....106 % i death.....didn

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #29 on: November 01, 2021, 11:02:08 PM »
Will you survive your "s" key on your keyboard rarely working?
Just barely.....got 3 computers but I like this laptop.....the"S" flew off one day while furiouly masterbating on X Hamster.I super glued it back on.....with super glue you filthy minded fuck!! ;D

it till act up ometime.  LOL  ;D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #30 on: November 01, 2021, 11:03:08 PM »
Carpe Diem MOTHERF UCKERS !!

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #31 on: November 01, 2021, 11:05:04 PM »
Oh this is for my good friend Les Grossman....I also OD`ed 3 times and was pronounced dead.....not a biggie at the time.

I love you Les,I really do buddy.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #32 on: November 01, 2021, 11:06:58 PM »
Life sucks but it beats the proverbial dirt nap by miles so toughen up and get busy bitches.  :D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #33 on: November 01, 2021, 11:07:49 PM »
Wicked 6 posts in a row MELTDOWN !!   ;D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #34 on: November 01, 2021, 11:31:27 PM »


I finally got out of it by going off in a completely new direction. I'll skip the details but I ended up breaking every rule I ever had lived by. I never hurt anyone or anything, mind you, but I was out to recreate myself. The journey took me all over the world. Got me into situations I never thought I'd get out of. What a rush, haha. And it worked. I felt like I had been reborn.


That's what i have been doing for the last 5-6 years.

It's amazing.

My life is 100 times better today than when i was working my life away for big oil.

It's all about perspective.

Most humans struggle with it.

Every day feels like vacation to me.

No worries, no stress, no drama.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #35 on: November 01, 2021, 11:56:30 PM »
I understand what you mean I’ve said for a while I don’t give a fuck how long I live as long as see my kids through childhood while they need me, after that I don’t care and would like it to come sooner rather than later.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #36 on: November 02, 2021, 04:13:03 AM »
I understand what you mean I’ve said for a while I don’t give a fuck how long I live as long as see my kids through childhood while they need me, after that I don’t care and would like it to come sooner rather than later.
You say that now my friend,but no one truly wants to die unless like I said above they are in agony from an illness.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #37 on: November 02, 2021, 04:15:10 AM »
Will you survive your "s" key on your keyboard rarely working?
Joh....he ell ea hell by the eahore   LOL  ;D

You ahole......orry only johing  ;D HA HA HA HA

I kill me at times...........oops  :D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #38 on: November 02, 2021, 05:10:06 AM »
You say that now my friend,but no one truly wants to die unless like I said above they are in agony from an illness.

Hell is not being able to or not wanting to kill oneself while life is intolerable too! You are caught in a nightmare.  :'( :D

I think the OP mentioned being on a mood stabilizer. These can cause emotional dulling or numbness. You don't care if you live or die. Of course bipolar kills too.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #39 on: November 02, 2021, 09:38:25 AM »
Hell is not being able to or not wanting to kill oneself while life is intolerable too! You are caught in a nightmare.  :'( :D

I think the OP mentioned being on a mood stabilizer. These can cause emotional dulling or numbness. You don't care if you live or die. Of course bipolar kills too.
I`m on a veritable ton of mood stabilizers.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #40 on: November 02, 2021, 09:43:20 AM »
I`m on a veritable ton of mood stabilizers.

Holy Christ!  You're already a fireball, and this is you in 'calm' mode!?  So now I'm wondering WTF you'd be like without them, fella?  :o

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #41 on: November 02, 2021, 10:43:22 AM »
Holy Christ!  You're already a fireball, and this is you in 'calm' mode!?  So now I'm wondering WTF you'd be like without them, fella?  :o

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I coild possibly end up being rubber roomates with Josh !!   LOL  ;D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #42 on: November 02, 2021, 10:55:03 AM »
I`m on a veritable ton of mood stabilizers.

I'm on 3 different antidepressants. Bupropion, venlafaxine and mirtazapine. Still depressed  :D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #43 on: November 02, 2021, 10:59:16 AM »
I'm on 3 different antidepressants. Bupropion, venlafaxine and mirtazapine. Still depressed  :D
I`m still depressed also......can`t remember a time in my life when I wasn`t except for fleeting periods.

Been on almost everything at one time or another..........the only thing that made me feel OK was taken off the market years ago due to people dying from liver complications.

Can`t remember the name of it.....long time ago,but I acttually felt balanced unlike my normal mentally unbalanced self.  :D

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #44 on: November 02, 2021, 11:06:09 AM »
paxil and divalproex
not depressed
since ive stuck to probiotic, vitamins b,c and d and omega 3 fish oil things have been ok
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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #45 on: November 02, 2021, 01:55:49 PM »
You say that now my friend,but no one truly wants to die unless like I said above they are in agony from an illness.

I know your right mate and will probably find something else to occupy time when it comes around just can’t shake the feeling there’s nothing left after this but then again I though life may as well be over when first found out was having first kid so guess can come around to idea of most things haha

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #46 on: November 02, 2021, 02:02:14 PM »
Yeh, often wish I was dead. Life for me is very unfulfilling

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #48 on: November 02, 2021, 02:15:58 PM »
Don't think so much.

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Re: Anyone Else Feel This Way?
« Reply #49 on: November 02, 2021, 02:21:47 PM »
Yes..I often feel this way. I would like to see my kids grow up.. retirement will be fun I think..it's a mixed bag for me. I hate what American has become...that really gets me down though
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