Same here.....fuck that nasty looking shit.
I feel sorry for you. I was on the same boat in the past - the idea of raw fish sounded very unappealing. But once I got over the mental block it was amazing. Of course, if you live in Buttfuck, Ohio you may not have access to decent sushi, but high quality sushi / sashimi is one of the most amazing culinary experiences there is in life, hands down.