These are your thoughts as a father of 4?
Yes, unfortunately.
I just haven't recovered from that woman I was seeing in 2018.
I can't believe how a person could claim to be a victim of domestic and sexual abuse, and hide and entire drug addiction from me, and claim I wasn't doing enough for her, making me go crazy to try to do more, when that was NEVER the issue [she wanted a man she could control - some women do that to control the breakup - and she had mostly lefty libtard friends, so my politics were an issue].
Had she just told me THAT, I would have been fine. Instead, she kept saying I wasn't doing enough, or being understanding enough, when I could not have done more.
Picture this: imagine Brian Shaw's wife telling him he isn't STRONG ENOUGH? Brian is ALREADY killing himself to be as strong as he can possibly be. Can you imagine if he was lied to like that, and ending up increasing his doses and killing him?
That would be a mind-fuck to lie to someone like that.
The reason why I was seeing that woman, is because my 4-year-old's mom took the first $12,000 I gave her over the first five months to settle her divorce. There was NOTHING bought for the baby beyond the bare minimum. I was like - WHERE THE FUCK IS MY MONEY, FOR OUR BABY??
That pushed me into that bitch from 2018, who ruined my life.
Had my baby's mom just told me she needed to settle her divorce, I wouldn't have been driven crazy, and pushed into the arms of another, MUCH MUCH WORSE, woman.
And honestly deadz - I just haven't found myself able to trust again. Not just women - everyone.
These were MASSIVE lies. MASSIVE.
And I've just had so many people fuck my shit up, from lawyers, to invest advisors, to dentists, etc.
I'm just done with people.
I'd like to get my trust and respect for people back, but...it's been almost four years, and - nothing.
At 15:45, Ray says he doesn't feel 60 at all:
And now he's dead.
I also hate how some things are inconsistent like that. But that's life.
I guess I'm just such a "What you see is what you get" person, that I expect that from others.
There are straight people married for DECADES to people who are gay. I'm sorry, but that's fucked! Why must people LIE SO MUCH??
I KNOW I'm not the only person who feels this way. Not even close!