Are you still wishing you didn't exist Matt? Getbiggers are giving you some good tips 
I would assume non-existence is rather peaceful.
I feel like mortality is overrated. The pleasure is not worth the pain, IMO.
No amount of money, access to sex, or anything else makes up for the bad. A friend of mine recently said that she would not want to be reborn as a 10-year-old with access to all the knowledge she has now, as going through high school would not be worth it. Someone else I know said that.
I think ChristopherA is correct about Fentanyl. But with my luck I'd survive it, and end up a vegetable or something.
Someone I know died of a Fentanyl overdose in September.
He "quit" Suboxone by starting to use Fentanyl.