Severely Depressed For The Last Month

[wes]

Sorry to hear this Wes.

You're a legend in my eyes and respected and liked by many. You always have a good word for people and contribute to a wide range of topics, plus you have fantastic knowledge and experience. I hope you know your getbig family appreciates you greatly and most importantly.....you will get through this.

Depression can be a monster but you have slayed this beast before and you can do it again now.

If you ever want to drop me a line you are more than welcome.

Right back at you my friend.....you`ve always been a good dude!!

Thanks so much for the encouragement.

I feel  like a kunt now that I started this thread.......it took me 3 days of thinking to finally decide to post it but you guys are a big help cuz I know you give a fuck.

Thanks again my friend.

PS- I need henda to tell me to toughen up or set myself on fire!  LOL 

[wes]

There's a lot of talk about doing two large dose mushroom trips (25mg?), and wearing blinders and doing an introspective.  Someone's been commissioning a study on this, and has had some good success stories.

Wes, it's good you recognize your symptoms....you'll pull through....heck I don't give a shit about anything here but wanted to see you compete for your pro card, so stay the course.  Get well buddy!

Thanks so much Grape......as far as shrooms go I will never get high or drunk again.

If I did that I might never stop again........I was truly a mess at a few points in my life.

Reality fucking sux but it`s........REALITY!!

[wes]

Dude, it's your threats of the ignore list that likely triggered this.

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha  LEGIT LOL 

EDIT: first time I laughed in weeks and can`t stop..........ahh shit! 

[illuminati]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

X2

I just sent you a PM .

👍🏻👊🏻

[bhank]

A legal delta 8 thc gummy isn't going to get you high or hurt your training it might however help your mood sleep and appetite.

[wes]

X2

I just sent you a PM .

👍🏻👊🏻

Got it!

[Henda]

Right back at you my friend.....you`ve always been a good dude!!

Thanks so much for the encouragement.

I feel  like a kunt now that I started this thread.......it took me 3 days of thinking to finally decide to post it but you guys are a big help cuz I know you give a fuck.

Thanks again my friend.

PS- I need henda to tell me to toughen up or set myself on fire!  LOL 

I would never say such a thing to someone I like and respect as much as you wes

So sorry to hear your feeling so low and I hope it passes soon brother I know you can beat this s as nd if you ever need to talk about absolutely anything please don’t hesitate to message mate

[The Scott]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

Each day is another chapter or story in our lives.  It cannot be written if the author says it's done.  It is normal to feel down at times.  You would not be human otherwise and so I adjure you to take a look at past chapters and find reasons to keep writing that book. 

At least you can write.  Look at that retard bhanky, he is the personification of a typist.   

[illuminati]

I see my therapist in a few weeks......I have always thrown away the meds as they did shot for me.

Back in the 80`s they had me on a med that made me feel comfortable in my own skin for once.....I was on the highest dosage allowed then they tell me they have to take me off of it as it was damaging peoples liver and had even killed a few people.

Miraculously enough after all the bullshit I did to my body.my liver has no lesions,visible scarring,and my enzymes are fine......that`s insane to me after all the stupid shit I did to get drunk and high......but that was in another life,but I`m a lucky bastard......I know about 125-150 people I "partied" with who are pushing up daisies right now.

That sounds so much like what happened to me,
Had me on some tablet & I felt good - my mind was quite stable & balanced
Probably the best I can remember feeling.
Yep they stopped it for pretty much same reasons .

My mind slowly returned to the rollercoaster hell ride it is.

Its worse than any prison sentence- battling your own mind & the day to day
Crap of outside life.

Lot of interesting posts- Thanks all that have posted suggestions to Wes.

[webstar]

A legal delta 8 thc gummy isn't going to get you high or hurt your training it might however help your mood sleep and appetite.

Of course drugs are your answer.

Surprised you didn’t suggest mdma.

Idiot

[Fortress]

“Kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight” ~ Bruce Cockburn (from the song “Lovers in a Dangerous Time”)

I know how treacherous depression can be. A foe more challenging than the next 1,000 Jason Blahas.

Stay the course. Day to day. Day to day. Day to day.

Grab a firm hold of the things you most cherish in this world. (For Fortress, these are music and lifting, for instance.)

You’re very appreciated here, brother. Don’t forget this.

We’re a ragtag group of goofballs, but the good ones here have your back.

Sincerely,

Robert

[LurkerNoMore]

Sorry to hear.  Maybe just take a complete lifestyle break for a week or two.  No gym.  No foods you usually eat.  Avoid the usual time frames and routine.  Change your scenery and take long walks. Binge watch a tv show.  If you drink try to cut back a little. 
Never underestimate the power of the ocean. It has rejuvenating properties.  I live less than half a mile from the ocean and am usually in it twice a week. 

Just do something different from your normal routine for a bit.  Make the time/break/change work for you.  If you have been grinding away in the gym for a while it’s important physically and mentally to give your CNS a break.  CNS fatigue can greatly affect your mind and outlook.  Schedule little breaks in the future and take them even if you don’t feel like you need them.

I’ve been in Japan since May 8 and won’t leave until 24.  I’ve been using this time as a break and recharge opportunity.  I haven’t trained once over here. (Mainly because gyms are scarce) but just stayed busy walking a lot.  And tried a 24 hour fast that Keto Kid got me interested in. 

Remember your body isn’t a machine.  You can’t plod along in the same rut nonstop without it affecting.  Just take a break and rest.  Try something different.  Even if it is just blasting 80s songs and punching a bag to release the tension.

[wes]

Henda,Scott,Illuminati,webstar,Fortress,and Lurker..............than ks for the encouraging words my brothers in iron....they mean a lot coming from you all who I have much respect and admiration for.

[illuminati]

Each day is another chapter or story in our lives.  It cannot be written if the author says it's done.  It is normal to feel down at times.  You would not be human otherwise and so I adjure you to take a look at past chapters and find reasons to keep writing that book. 

At least you can write.  Look at that retard bhanky, he is the personification of a typist.   

Fine words as always Scott.

Alas I'm staring to think my book is nearly finished
& I don't want to write anymore.

Stop the Ride I want to Get off.

[wes]

To echo my good friend Illuminati, and one of the best people I`ve ever had the opportunity to interact with here.....thanks to all of you my getbig family of crazy sumbitches..........love you all......EXTREME HOMO!!!   

[irishdave]

I haven’t logged in in a while but I will to say we all love you Wes and don’t be bothered with the likes of hanky this online stuff can take a toll on you if you keep arguing too much here

You are a great man to give up alcohol I think it’s the hardest of all because it’s everywhere

Stay strong brother and lots of love from your amigo in the motherland

[bhank]

Henda,Scott,Illuminati,webstar,Fortress,and Lurker..............than ks for the encouraging words my brothers in iron....they mean a lot coming from you all who I have much respect and admiration for.

For fuck sake give the delta 8 a try you will feel better and it has numerous benefits like sleep anti inflammatory mood appetite and even metabolic benefits

[irishdave]

Hi Wes,

Have you considered TRT?

I hope you are well Ronan I’m sorry I didn’t make contact last time I was away with the fairies I’ll give you a call if you PM me your number

[The Scott]

Fine words as always Scott.

Alas I'm staring to think my book is nearly finished
& I don't want to write anymore.

Stop the Ride I want to Get off.

I've kinda done that 3 times now and when I am given yet another chance I find I am grateful.  You are a good man.   Think of it this way, we may think we are done writing our story but then someone else enters our life to give us reason to hope for more time.

[Hulkotron]

Take care big wes

Cardio and unprotected vaginal sex are the best cures for depression that I know of.

[tatoo]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

look at everything youve overcome!! lung cancer, booze, drugs,strippers, ect lol.....you should be long gone or fucked up... and yet you still have the ability to make progress in your life!! you gamed that system and got out alive..youve helped a shitload of people, including myself stay on track.. keep fighting... fight that shit!! if youve dealt w depression this long brother, you gotta know is not going away... beat that fucker into retreat!!! and when it comes back, do it again!!

[38 returns]

wes i've pm-ed you mate let me know you've got it

[michael arvilla]

You are truly a good guy Wes! (Bury yourself in training and competing .... that's what I do ... the dieting and everything keeps me so busy the negative thoughts don't have a chance to creep in!) ... get out of the house as much as possible ...try to enjoy life!!

[Raymondo]

Don't do anything rash man. You would be sorely missed. People here love you and want the best for you.

(no homo of course)

[wazhazbin]

“Kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight” ~ Bruce Cockburn (from the song “Lovers in a Dangerous Time”)

I know how treacherous depression can be. A foe more challenging than the next 1,000 Jason Blahas.

Stay the course. Day to day. Day to day. Day to day.

Grab a firm hold of the things you most cherish in this world. (For Fortress, these are music and lifting, for instance.)

You’re very appreciated here, brother. Don’t forget this.

We’re a ragtag group of goofballs, but the good ones here have your back.

Sincerely,

Robert

coolest thing you ever wrote brother!

nice.