Severely Depressed For The Last Month

[oldtimer1]

Sorry to hear this. I know this will make guys here angry but doesn't the use of bodybuilding drugs put a person on an emotional roller coaster? Even Arnold and Mentzer talked about it.

Get some help. Hopefully they can find the right drugs to help you out.

What works for me is cardio. A long fast walk in the sunshine does wonders for my disposition. Someone mentioned water and I concur. Being in a pool or the ocean makes for a better day. Then again you live close to the north pole.

Hope nothing I wrote pissed you off. Know this. Hold on for 15 minutes. Make it a day. Make that day a week. A month and go toward a year of hanging on. Bad times won't last. You will smile again. Just hang on. I remember back in the Ironage board you were always quick to share your knowledge of training on private messages. Thought that was really decent of you to respond to my questions.

[Deacon Jeschin]

I see my therapist in a few weeks......I have always thrown away the meds as they did shot for me.

Back in the 80`s they had me on a med that made me feel comfortable in my own skin for once.....I was on the highest dosage allowed then they tell me they have to take me off of it as it was damaging peoples liver and had even killed a few people.

Miraculously enough after all the bullshit I did to my body.my liver has no lesions,visible scarring,and my enzymes are fine......that`s insane to me after all the stupid shit I did to get drunk and high......but that was in another life,but I`m a lucky bastard......I know about 125-150 people I "partied" with who are pushing up daisies right now.

Glad to hear you’re seeing your dr soon.  Don’t blame your wife for not understanding.  Most people who don’t have similar issues cannot relate… I call those people “Very Lucky.”  Lol

Take everything one day at a time and keep training.  When you start seeing results from your new nutritional plan, I believe you will be in a better place.

Hang in there and just get to tomorrow my friend….

[Zillotch]

Stay the course. Day to day. Day to day. Day to day.

Sincerely,

Robert

one day of fortitude.

'if I did it yesterday, I can do it today... if I do it today.. I can do it tomorrow'

there is power in that simple truth

[Bevo]

You are truly a good guy Wes! (Bury yourself in training and competing .... that's what I do ... the dieting and everything keeps me so busy the negative thoughts don't have a chance to creep in!) ... get out of the house as much as possible ...try to enjoy life!!

Agree!!

 But it’s easy for you to say when your cock has been in Laura

[obsidian]

“Kick at the darkness until it bleeds daylight” ~ Bruce Cockburn (from the song “Lovers in a Dangerous Time”)

I know how treacherous depression can be. A foe more challenging than the next 1,000 Jason Blahas.

Stay the course. Day to day. Day to day. Day to day.

Grab a firm hold of the things you most cherish in this world. (For Fortress, these are music and lifting, for instance.)

You’re very appreciated here, brother. Don’t forget this.

We’re a ragtag group of goofballs, but the good ones here have your back.

Sincerely,

Robert

Good advice by Fortress. Hang in Wes and good luck with your prep!

What works for me when I feel down is to choose one or two goals to accomplish that day and complete it. When you take things one step at a time it helps. One goal completed means you've progressed from where you were before you took on the goal. And it takes your mind off what's keeping you down. I know its not always as simple as that but its a start. And sometimes I just say fuck it I am not worrying about this shit anymore.

[Van_Bilderass]

What's depressing is when you finally express to friends that you may not want to go on. Chances now are you're like a leper. Like this guy smells of death, better keep my distance. I'm much the same as you, lifelong depression and unfortunately I don't have good advice, otherwise I would have applied it to myself. But maybe the idea of "things always can get better" is often true, at times things don't feel as heavy. Wes you come across as very sympathetic guy on here, we want you to go on.

Could the "banned" drug have been lithium? It was never banned though but it requires blood work periodically.

[38 returns]

this has helped me

[Cook]

Wes my friend sorry it’s taken me so long to post.Trust me it’s not from lack of interest.You will fight back from this just hit that iron and you will immediately feel better.Many times over the last (shit) 45 years now I have felt like the world is caving in on me and as soon as I hit the weight room I felt better.Hang in there buddy and let me know if I can help.Stay strong brother
                                               Train hard
               

[wes]

Thanks to all of you guys....you`re the best.

I feel better all ready.

[Goliathon]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

Have you tried some CBG? Seriously great for depression, no shit.

[Raymondo]

What's depressing is when you finally express to friends that you may not want to go on. Chances now are you're like a leper. Like this guy smells of death, better keep my distance.

Fair weather friends, not worth a shit.

[wes]

Have you tried some CBG? Seriously great for depression, no shit.

I am prescribed Diazapam......seems to help a bit.

[JustPlaneJane]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

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[Raymondo]

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Don't be a twat

[IroNat]

One day at a time, my friend.

This too shall pass and all will be well.

Read a enjoyable book.  Sit in the sun.  Take a walk and look at the beauty of nature.

Listen to great music.

Watch the movie "It's A Wonderful Life".

Eat ice cream.

*Avoid over-training.  Stop each set 2-3 reps before failure. 10-15 sets per bodypart, twice a week is more than enough.*

[JustPlaneJane]

Just kidding Wes !

Without typing too much on the subject, many times anger turned inwards manifests itself as depression. Do you have a source of anger or frustration that you haven't acknowledged that is affecting you negatively ? You're a smart guy, turn that high powered intellect on yourself and reflect on some recent events that may have triggered your malaise. The cause and effect might be staring you in the face and you don't realize it.

I will call you up and we can chat.

Be strong. Always be stronger than your excuses !

[JustPlaneJane]

Don't be a twat

Eat shit, fuckwad.

[AbrahamG]

A legal delta 8 thc gummy isn't going to get you high or hurt your training it might however help your mood sleep and appetite.

Delta 8 can and will still get you high.  Normally, I'd agree with this advice but for Wes who has addiction challenges, this is not the best advice.  Perhaps, it would be worth Wes discussing these alternative therapies with his therapist and/or doctor. 

That being said, I have no doubt Wes will plow through this latest setback and get back on track.  Wishing my friend Wes nothing but the best and I'm always available to chat.  Homo.  Pure homo. 

[Goliathon]

I am prescribed Diazapam......seems to help a bit.

If you feel like you're getting stabbed in the heart with a long sword it won't do shit. But if you feel like you're experiencing death by a thousand paper cuts it'll change your life. Can't stand CBD I feel like I'm getting a feverish depression any time I tried it. THC just makes me all paranoid and anxious.

I've listened to Joe Rogan blabbler on about exogenous chemicals for years, I'm very anti drugs including pharmies, but this stuff is legit.

[sync pulse]

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

I can so relate...My mother emotionally abused me to a point just short of suicide daily...My older sister told me well after I reached adulthood that the family physician told my parents that they should never allow me to have any say or power over anything...Nothing at all...and they didn't.  I was dismissed about everything,,.Even about something as not important as wanting to go see the Three Stooges and Laurel and Hardy on Saturdays at the movies...Or getting my drivers license when I was 16 when I made all A's at drivers education.

[Raymondo]

Eat shit, fuckwad.

Don't cry, ok?

[robcguns]

I feel you Wes, I get like this all the time as well. Feel free to reach out anytime. I’m about to kill myself one day and next day riding high and back and forth. Life really can suck but can be good as well.

[IroNat]

I can so relate...My mother emotionally abused me to a point just short of suicide daily...My older sister told me well after I reached adulthood that the family physician told my parents that they should never allow me to have any say or power over anything...Nothing at all...and they didn't.  I was dismissed about everything,,.Even about something as not important as wanting to go see the Three Stooges and Laurel and Hardy on Saturdays at the movies...Or getting my drivers license when I was 16 when I made all A's at drivers education.

Are you saying your parents would not let you become a trans-woman and have the operation?

[wes]

My childhood,if you want to call  it that was a fucking nightmare.

Try having a daily drunk as a father who terrorised me and my sisters and told us we would never amount to  shit,then throw in the fact that he was a woman beater who broke my mothers nose and knocked out her teeth and beat us up weekly.

He used to tell me as a kid as I did doorway chinups that I was a fag and only guys lifted weights......plus I lived in a ghetto in the 60`s and 70`s and was getting high in the hippie days and my biggest accomplishment after surviving this and much much more was that I survived Catholic school in the 1960`s.......until they threw me the fuck out of course.

Remember integration,well I  was the only white kid on the bus with 45 coons so I was  both hated by them and by my own kind for being poor.

I learned real quick how to run fast and then I learned how to fight pretty good as nobody was stealing my shoes.  LOL 

Got married to a stripper on a strip club stage,got my head busted open by my best man for a wedding gift then guns came out......and a good time was had by all! 

I`ve been pronounced dead from OD`ing 3 times,survived Hepatitus B with a 105 degree temp for 7 days before I signed myself out AMA,survived Colitus where my small self lost 40 fucking pounds and looked corpselike.....survived lung Cancer......what the fuck,if I die I had a great fucking time.  LOL 

I could go on and on but some things I keep to myself and nobody would believe me anyway.

Worked as a doorman weighing a buck 70 for 13 years......still alive.

I could write two fucking novels,as a matter of fact many people have told me that I should but the only people that would read them would be criminals.

Anyway,now I`m pissed at myself,back  in the gym next week and I pity any asshole that looks at me crosseyed............... .just been around too fucking long and through too much shit to take kindly to disrespect.....whether it be in a mall,grocery store,movie theater,...........you know the drill. 

I`ve worn a lot of hats in my life but like the one I wear now......always a stand up  guy to the best of my ability anyway.

[chaos]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

Have you tried staring at titties? You can't be depressed staring at titties. Titties make everything better.