Severely Depressed For The Last Month

[pamith]

No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.


Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel  cuz I know he can relate.

Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.

Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once  again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.

At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.

I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. 

Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.

I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.

Grow a pair bro

[illuminati]

Have you tried staring at titties? You can't be depressed staring at titties. Titties make everything better.

Yeah True 😊

[wazhazbin]

Grow a pair bro

wow i always knew you were an idiot, i didn't realize you were a little bitch too. 

[Agnostic007]

I hear you. You want to vent. You don't want to hear a lot of "try this" advice because, hell, since 13 you've been dealing with this and it's not your 1st rodeo. I hope you start feeling better soon.

[pamith]

The real reason you are depressed is because you are on steroids you dumbass

[Agnostic007]

The real reason you are depressed is because you are on steroids you dumbass

Since 13? Where did you get your diploma from?

[Rascal full]

The real reason you are depressed is because you are on steroids you dumbass

Yo fucktard, I didn't think I'd say it but even your normal, mindless 'brutal if true' that you have said to death and back is better than this. People found you vaguely amusing until you repeated the same shit so many times you wore out any good will you had going. FUCK OFF

[Agnostic007]

Yo fucktard, I didn't think I'd say it but even your normal, mindless 'brutal if true' that you have said to death and back is better than this. People found you vaguely amusing until you repeated the same shit so many times you wore out any good will you had going. FUCK OFF

I don't think I'll ever wrap my head around accepting that a human being will see another human being posting about a mental illness and being vulnerable.. and another person can't rise above the sewer and either ignore the post or have something positive to say. Pam has been on this site what.. 4 years.. and she thinks she has the right to be a jerk to an OG? There is Getbig mentality and there is being a decent human being... Pammy apparently doesn't understand that..

[Agnostic007]

Right back at you my friend.....you`ve always been a good dude!!

Thanks so much for the encouragement.

I feel  like a kunt now that I started this thread.......it took me 3 days of thinking to finally decide to post it but you guys are a big help cuz I know you give a fuck.

Thanks again my friend.

PS- I need henda to tell me to toughen up or set myself on fire!  LOL 

Never feel bad about posting things like this. You've been here 20 years. If this isn't a family by now I don't know what is. The downside is, there will be that "Cousin Ernie" chiming in. But the majority of the OG's understand everyone has tough times and will be supportive.

[wes]

The real reason you are depressed is because you are on steroids you dumbass

At 67 years old you fucking one syllable fucking retard 200 mgs. of TRT isn`t gonna` make or break me.....wait until you see the veritable boatload of shit I`m doing for my contest you jealous imbecile! 

Sorry of you`re a pussy who`s afraid to do a shot you roach infested fuck.

40 years in the ghetto/streets and we never had mice or roaches you filthy fuck! 

[wes]

Never feel bad about posting things like this. You've been here 20 years. If this isn't a family by now I don't know what is. The downside is, there will be that "Cousin Ernie" chiming in. But the majority of the OG's understand everyone has tough times and will be supportive.

Thanks bud,I agree! 

[Humble Narcissist]

At 67 years old you fucking one syllable fucking retard 200 mgs. of TRT isn`t gonna` make or break me.....wait until you see the veritable boatload of shit I`m doing for my contest you jealous imbecile! 

Sorry of you`re a pussy who`s afraid to do a shot you roach infested fuck.

40 years in the ghetto/streets and we never had mice or roaches you filthy fuck! 

Get well soon Wes. Being able to vent on Getbig helps.

[wes]

Sorry to hear this. I know this will make guys here angry but doesn't the use of bodybuilding drugs put a person on an emotional roller coaster? Even Arnold and Mentzer talked about it.

Get some help. Hopefully they can find the right drugs to help you out.

What works for me is cardio. A long fast walk in the sunshine does wonders for my disposition. Someone mentioned water and I concur. Being in a pool or the ocean makes for a better day. Then again you live close to the north pole.

Hope nothing I wrote pissed you off. Know this. Hold on for 15 minutes. Make it a day. Make that day a week. A month and go toward a year of hanging on. Bad times won't last. You will smile again. Just hang on. I remember back in the Ironage board you were always quick to share your knowledge of training on private messages. Thought that was really decent of you to respond to my questions.

Never any offense taken Rich.....glad you`re back old friend and I never take a ton of stuff....was never a relyer,I love to train hard.

[wes]

Just woke up,need coffee sorry not to address every post but my old self types with my right index finger.....I do a lot of other stuff with that finger too,but trust that I appreciate all advice and comments whether pro or con..........except for the retard Pamiths.............guys a......well a retard ad I hate that word but if the fucking shoe fits !  'D

[wes]

Wes my friend sorry it’s taken me so long to post.Trust me it’s not from lack of interest.You will fight back from this just hit that iron and you will immediately feel better.Many times over the last (shit) 45 years now I have felt like the world is caving in on me and as soon as I hit the weight room I felt better.Hang in there buddy and let me know if I can help.Stay strong brother
                                               Train hard
               

My brother in iron !! 

[Mothballs]

Get a passport and book yourself a one week trip ANYWHERE outside of the US. Don’t text or call anyone. Just be alone with yourself and things will become clear.

[wes]

Get well soon Wes. Being able to vent on Getbig helps.

Thanks my friend!! 

[Kwon]

Just woke up,need coffee sorry not to address every post but my old self types with my right index finger.....I do a lot of other stuff with that finger too,but trust that I appreciate all advice and comments whether pro or con..........except for the retard Pamiths.............guys a......well a retard ad I hate that word but if the fucking shoe fits !  'D

Have you thought about getting meds for the depression?

Is it better today?

How about doing something new and exciting (out of the ordinary)

Maybe that will excite you and help you put your mind on other things

[wes]

Get a passport and book yourself a one week trip ANYWHERE outside of the US. Don’t text or call anyone. Just be alone with yourself and things will become clear.

Maybe I`ll visit Pamith and bring a case of DDT and a case of Raid,along with a kick to the throat.

Actually bro,great advice but not feasible as I just paid my property taxes and had to put in in a new water tank in my basement but I will do something that takes me out of the norm.....thanks!

[wes]

I haven’t logged in in a while but I will to say we all love you Wes and don’t be bothered with the likes of hanky this online stuff can take a toll on you if you keep arguing too much here

You are a great man to give up alcohol I think it’s the hardest of all because it’s everywhere

Stay strong brother and lots of love from your amigo in the motherland

Thanks Dave.....I`m, Irish American,not quite the same but I love potatoes.

Me dear old mums maiden name was Brennan!


Be well my friend! 

[wes]

Take care big wes

Cardio and unprotected vaginal sex are the best cures for depression that I know of.

YES!!!

Thanks old friend. 

You are truly a good guy Wes! (Bury yourself in training and competing .... that's what I do ... the dieting and everything keeps me so busy the negative thoughts don't have a chance to creep in!) ... get out of the house as much as possible ...try to enjoy life!!

My plan exactly starting on Monday Mike..............it`s gonna` be Tunnellvision City !

Thanks bro!

[wes]

What's depressing is when you finally express to friends that you may not want to go on. Chances now are you're like a leper. Like this guy smells of death, better keep my distance. I'm much the same as you, lifelong depression and unfortunately I don't have good advice, otherwise I would have applied it to myself. But maybe the idea of "things always can get better" is often true, at times things don't feel as heavy. Wes you come across as very sympathetic guy on here, we want you to go on.

Could the "banned" drug have been lithium? It was never banned though but it requires blood work periodically.

Just kidding Wes !

Without typing too much on the subject, many times anger turned inwards manifests itself as depression. Do you have a source of anger or frustration that you haven't acknowledged that is affecting you negatively ? You're a smart guy, turn that high powered intellect on yourself and reflect on some recent events that may have triggered your malaise. The cause and effect might be staring you in the face and you don't realize it.

I will call you up and we can chat.

Be strong. Always be stronger than your excuses !

Thanks hun! 

[wes]

look at everything youve overcome!! lung cancer, booze, drugs,strippers, ect lol.....you should be long gone or fucked up... and yet you still have the ability to make progress in your life!! you gamed that system and got out alive..youve helped a shitload of people, including myself stay on track.. keep fighting... fight that shit!! if youve dealt w depression this long brother, you gotta know is not going away... beat that fucker into retreat!!! and when it comes back, do it again!!

Much appreciated buddy! 

[wes]

Each day is another chapter or story in our lives.  It cannot be written if the author says it's done.  It is normal to feel down at times.  You would not be human otherwise and so I adjure you to take a look at past chapters and find reasons to keep writing that book. 

At least you can write.  Look at that retard bhanky, he is the personification of a typist.   

You know Scott I have always looked at my life as if it were a book of chapters,I can`t wait to turn the page on this one......thanks to Bob Seger for the that line!   

[wes]

One day at a time, my friend.

This too shall pass and all will be well.

Read a enjoyable book.  Sit in the sun.  Take a walk and look at the beauty of nature.

Listen to great music.

Watch the movie "It's A Wonderful Life".

Eat ice cream.

*Avoid over-training.  Stop each set 2-3 reps before failure. 10-15 sets per bodypart, twice a week is more than enough.*

Thanks buddy....I`d throw up a Sandler or Bruce Lee gif but I need more java.

You`re a great guy Nat......no homo except on weekends when I am in cross dresser mode.  LOL