Wes will always be my favorite irish-american, next to Marky Mark, Henry Ford, Stephanie McMahon, Ronald Reagan, Liam Neeson, Peter O'Toole, Bing Crosby and Jennifer Connelly!Mel Tormé is my fav honorary irish-americanNo Homer Simpsia
Godamn Swiss people! LOL Hope all is well my friend!
Grow a pair bro
Fair weather friends, not worth a shit.
Stay active , read , workout
Yes but in a way understandable psychologically for various evolutionary reason. I think the data says wives are prone to leave if you are in economic hardships or get physically or mentally ill - just when you might need support most. A friend I told a while back that I wasn't feeling so hot, just texted me, "Van I feel like I didn't quite understand how tough things are for you because you almost never complain. I don't know if I would have the strength to go on in your situation." I just chuckled at his honesty, at least he didn't tell me to perk up, toughen up and how life is so wonderful at all times. And depression and anxiety is very hard to understand if you never went through a serious episode yourself.
Not much mention of prayer here but I will throw it out there. I was never religious, but recently (at much older years) started to attend church on and off because a friend had a long association with that church. Lo and behold, about a few months later I find myself in the pastor’s office confessing a thing or two. It relieved me a huge amount. Plus just getting the exposure to the words of Jesus on Sundays, whether buying into all the aspects or not.Stay strong and all the best. The gym and the competitions are a huge plus! As Michelangelo said on the Sistine Chapel ceiling, the beauty of man is the work of God.
He used to tell me as a kid as I did doorway chinups that I was a fag and only gays lifted weights......
SWEDISH! Not Swiss! LOLWish you the best Wes!
Based on what I've seen here, he might have a point....
Whenever I feel down like that, I think about how fast time goes (I'm about the same age as you) and I think "Soon it'll all be over anyway, fuck it"
what the fuck,if I die I had a great fucking time. LOL
My childhood,if you want to call it that was a fucking nightmare.Try having a daily drunk as a father who terrorised me and my sisters and told us we would never amount to shit,then throw in the fact that he was a woman beater who broke my mothers nose and knocked out her teeth and beat us up weekly.He used to tell me as a kid as I did doorway chinups that I was a fag and only guys lifted weights......plus I lived in a ghetto in the 60`s and 70`s and was getting high in the hippie days and my biggest accomplishment after surviving this and much much more was that I survived Catholic school in the 1960`s.......until they threw me the fuck out of course.Remember integration,well I was the only white kid on the bus with 45 coons so I was both hated by them and by my own kind for being poor.I learned real quick how to run fast and then I learned how to fight pretty good as nobody was stealing my shoes. LOL Got married to a stripper on a strip club stage,got my head busted open by my best man for a wedding gift then guns came out......and a good time was had by all! I`ve been pronounced dead from OD`ing 3 times,survived Hepatitus B with a 105 degree temp for 7 days before I signed myself out AMA,survived Colitus where my small self lost 40 fucking pounds and looked corpselike.....survived lung Cancer......what the fuck,if I die I had a great fucking time. LOL I could go on and on but some things I keep to myself and nobody would believe me anyway.Worked as a doorman weighing a buck 70 for 13 years......still alive.I could write two fucking novels,as a matter of fact many people have told me that I should but the only people that would read them would be criminals.Anyway,now I`m pissed at myself,back in the gym next week and I pity any asshole that looks at me crosseyed............... .just been around too fucking long and through too much shit to take kindly to disrespect.....whether it be in a mall,grocery store,movie theater,...........you know the drill. I`ve worn a lot of hats in my life but like the one I wear now......always a stand up guy to the best of my ability anyway.
Oh thtop it ....don`t be thilly !
No training or interest in training,eating very little, and it`s usually shit,feel like leaving my wife,have felt suicidal,and felt like drinking......I never feel like drinking or getting high.Not looking for sympathy for the pricks here that always say that.....I have explained to Josh how I feel cuz I know he can relate.Long story, but I cannot remember a time since I was about 12-13 where I haven`t been depressed......this is why I self medicated for so many decades,just trying to escape this severe depression.Fast forward to these times now (today),and my anxiety has taken precedence over my depression....ie, I am always somewhat depressed but I have learned how to deal with it by staying busy.....training, and competing has always helped in this regard,but now my depression has once again reared its ugly head......I know it will pass but this has been a fucking monster.At any rate no matter how I feel it`s back to the gym on Monday (seriously couldn`t be bothered to to start earlier and I like a new beginning and Monday seems to work for me ),and I`m gonna` diet like a pre-contest but eat larger portions and add in cardio..........anything to stay busy and occupied.I have a shitload of bio-identical supps for my contest,so on Monday if I don`t post in the training section it means I`ve hung myself in my barn. Sorry for the Matt C. like rant but had to vent and it seemed the thing to do with my getbig family.I am like The Phoenix so I don`t go out like a punkass bitch but this sux.
Wow so late to this thread sorry - didn't think it was actually about you Wes!I don't want to drop any advice here - you'll have heard it all before in the aeons since the Dawn of TimeExcept one thing - be kind to yourselfThat's it - nothing moreHope you feel better soon though, Bro
