I don't post here much but here goes.
Wes I'm older than a lot of the guys here but a couple years younger than you. You're posts are greatly appreciated by this little black duck, I look forward to them.
Without exception they are educational, entertaining, humbling or piss yer pants laugh out loud funny, often all things combined.
I saw an old interview with the late Rodney Dangerfield who said words to the effect that he'd trade everything, his comedic talent, his financial success, his fame, all for a better childhood. Don't ever discount the effect that can have on you. Anyone who has been there, they know and they don't question it. I feel your pain brother, but I also see the incredible strength and will to prevail.
Don't sell yourself short, and don't be afraid to reach out. I dunno wtf I can do here for you in Australia, but if something occurs to you, say it, because your posts, and those of some of the other long time posters are something I treasure.
In a modern world of pussified freaks, you are no doubt a dinosaur, but be proud of it there'll come a time when the pendulum swings and people will hope and pray for a hundred blokes like you.