have you not looked into psilocybin?
I looked into it before most here were even born bro......never again will I get drunk or take any mind altering drugs except for a bit of Diazapam that is prescribed to me.
Did shrooms,window pane,blotter acid,sugar cubes mescaline etc. etc........been recovered around 25 years now......I`m the type who could do it once and drop it like a hot potato,or do it and never stop again.
Thanks any way brother but I`d rather be depressed in reality.....well not really,but it`s MY only option!