I don't think that would be pushing it. I have been very slowly taking my time not pushing it. I think that will just be the natural progression of my current path. I don't think adding 20-30lbs to my max bench in a year is pushing it. Honestly, I think I may be close right now. I would not attempt 350lbs if I didn't feel I could bench it comfortably. As far as why I am shocked you would ask. Why get up after falling down?? Why do what others think can not be done? Why challenge yourself? Why take back everything life and time have taken away? You don't think I also plan to improve my legs? I am not old and decrepit yet. I still have blood in my veins. I will rise like a phoenix. If you think I am already dead then prepare for the resurrection. The best is yet to come
What was shocking about the question? You go on and on about your pec tears and shoulders when people say things to you, so why push it is a legit question.
Here's a challenge....go one...make it two...months without some ailment coming up. How about that?
You aren't the phoenix. You talk about organ failure when trying to do bodybuilding shows. I do not recall anywhere in folklore about the phoenix having hallucinations or whatever else you've done to yourself.
Why not maintain some health and fitness so you can be around for your wife and kid