OK basic rundown is this. Both shoulders have decades of wear and tear from heavy training. In addition to that a few years back I was hit and knocked flying by a reversing forklift. Damage and a clot in my right thigh from the contact with said forklift that required surgery but I'm upright and walking. BUT I landed very awkwardly and dislocated my right shoulder. IT went back in of it's own accord almost immediately afterward as I struggled to get up and fucked around with it a bit. Stupidly I thought it was hurt but would heal. Some years later I finally got xrays and ultrasound. A snapped ligament and a number of partiallly torn tendons (bicep and shoulder and rotator cuff stuff smd something to do with the scapula) I have no probs with rowing/pulldown/chin movements it turns out. Can bench with a particularly narrow grip and carefully planned bar path/groove. I 'can' do military presses, but the only way to do so is with dumbells and swing them up almost like a snatch movement and start from the upright end of motion position and lower them down 'as if' doing a behind the neck press. Any further forward with the dumbells and the shoulder sort of locks up in the bottom position, even with excessively light weight and is a no go. And of course all/any rehab-prehab shouder exercises (face pulls etc)
Surgery was not and is not an option. I was working 6 days/week away from home and earning enough money for my family's future. Blue collar for life, but doing ok. I've recently changed roles (I work in transport) and am locally based exclusively now, so home every night. This means I can finally train again. I simply can't take 6-12 months off work for surgery/healing. I do ok financially but not 'that' bloody good. What I can do is train/rehab as much as I can to strengthen other supporting muscles and make the best of a bad situation, and can realistically afford to look at some sort of steroid/gh combo. I did use the former back in my 20s and have some idea on that front, what I don't really have a good handle or experience with is gh.
I realise that this is FAR from an ideal solution, but I made my choices because pain and compromised movements were a better option than letting my family down and going off work. (and I'm no fucking hero, I reckon most blokes would do the ame) but it's the state of the union so to speak.
Assuming I can get real stuff (not that hard in Australia to be honest) could some of the learned people here weigh in on whether or not there might be any hope of improvement of the tendons/ligaments that aren't completely snapped and if so would anyone care to speculate as to what sort of dosing protocol/amount might be worth considering. regular gear wise I was thinking something basic like a combination of a moderately long acting test ester (cyp or enanthate) for convenience and some deca on top. Nothing extreme, but still serious - perhaps something like 600-800mg per week in total with about 2/3 being the test ester and the remaining 1/3 deca. I've heard varying reports on a few peptides and or sarms, but to be honest sourcing them is not quite as reliable here and I'd rather not waste time adding the extra variable as far as product being legit goes.
TL/DR version: tore tendons and ligaments in shoulders a few years ago, any thoughts on possible benefits of test/deca/gh combo and if so any thoughts as to dosage ?
Thanks in advance to anyone who can offer any thoughts. Criticisms and negative feedback with be equally welcome without me losing the slightest hint of my sunny disposition.
