Respectfully, have you considered that the idea of a (personal) "God" may be complete bullshit? I have been pondering the topic for about 2 decades now and it's tilted towards bullshit rather than truth
I grew up going to Catholic school until they threw me out.....we were brainwashed to believe in God from an early age.
Since joining getbig over 20 years ago and reading stuff about "sky wizards and shit, I began to believe it was all pure bullshit......I became a doubting Thomas.
My recent Cancer surgery, which is the most extensive and dangerous intestinal surgery you can get, was just another incident that restored my belief in God, even though I am a total sinner.
I was on life support twice and given a 50-50 chance to live.
And this is just one of too many close scrapes, and close encounters with death in my life.
I have come to have changed my thoughts about His existence a long time ago, because as I see it,I`m just not that fucking lucky of a person to have lived through these very close scrapes with "The Grim Reaper".......something or somebody has been looking out for me in my eyes/mind.
I have no clue about reincarnation,but yes I believe fervently in God though I`m far from a "Bible thumper".......in fact,I`ve never even read it.......I just have my own path/philosophy that I try to follow. as best that I can.
I could list the the encounters but don`t feel the need to think or go dwell on back stories though I will never forget them.
You be you,and I`ll do me.
Remember,"there are no atheists in foxholes" !!!
See you in Hell bro.
