Hi mate it’s sad that you feel like that I did kinda know you would feel the same and understand the feeling, like you said I have no intention of offing myself but also wouldn’t be to fussed if some random accident wiped me out, last time I was truly happy was when the kids were little, now every thing that try to be happy feels like a betrayal to those times if that makes any sense, I can’t remember a time when didn’t have to think bad thoughts, replay bad memories to fall asleep at night and just think surely there more to life than this shitshow it’s become. I hope you do manage to find happiness mate I for one would be sad if you were no longer here
Think they're is a few of us in a similar situation - I'm fed up with my life in general & don't see much of a
Bright future ahead. I have some good days for sure just in general I'm finding life dull & monotonous
Very little positiveness or excitement, some of this I'm sure is in part due to my state of mind.
I'm finding it difficult to be motivated & do the things I need to , its like I can't be bothered, why I'm like this
I haven't worked out yet.
No I don't particularly want to die only If I was to drop dead that'd be okay, I've lived a colourful life a bit too
Colourful at times & maybe thats a contributing factor to how I'm feeling now.
I just feel/ think there's more to life than just kind of existing & I'm just existing for the sake of it at this time
& probably for the last few years.
I have a few ideas / plans that I hope will change who I feel & my life.
Good luck to all who are suffering & hopefully life will become more positive & better for you all.