I have unfortunately met a number of people like you: always wrong, never in doubt, think they are smart, but really are not.
But it's good for you to hang around the board. There are some smart people here. Perhaps you can learn something from them.
so do you actual think there is a person listening to your thoughts and communicating with you? Monotheists crack me up.
Again with the copying. It's quite odd.
Stop being pusillanimous and have the courage to be yourself, do your own thing! Stop being a dilletante in life and commit to learning something. Read a book, non-fiction of course.
I will say that if you are serious about being christ you are doing a very bad job at it. The last christian likely did die on the cross.