So you’ve read everything but Catholicism/Christianity? Got it.
I have read a bunch of it. Eckhart, aquinas, augustine, simone weil, hildegard of bingen, avila and more and have read gnostic texts etc, hans jonas etc etc
I own about 3000 books and read 2-3 a week since I was a child, all non-fiction (chaos is syntribating) . I say this to maybe wake you up that you maybe, just maybe might not really know all that much. Maybe, just maybe you could empty your cup so you could learn a little. It's impossible to read and learn when you already know everything. Beginners mind son. Despite all my reading I know very little, the more you learn the more you realize you don't know fuck all.
I am attempting to enlighten you. However, it appears you have it all figured out.