You are the 150lb woman I was talking about
Listen to yourself. I know the phrase "you need help" is thrown loosely around but in your case it's real. You are definitely a mentally unbalanced person who is so far removed from reality. I can't believe you look at yourself and really think you look "beastly". You post a pic on social media where you look hunched over, old, and shriveled and brag about it.
What a weird and creepy little creature you are.