I wanted to step back on stage but honestly im lacking the discipline to diet my ass off. I dp pretty well and then i just been letting off the diet right before i get into contest shape...right now im in "decent gym shape" :rolleyes: I did 4 natural shows , i would again compete naturally- although many people I know are all on gear- And let me tell you- some go from nothing to "WoW factor" in 12 weeks using gear, and its frustrating for me..its so tempting to go to the darkside..but whats the point- A) I would still have to diet my ass off to stel on stage and B) Honestly I think I woud look competitve with 12 weeks of a good cycle- but I am not dellusional and Ive seen guys on YEARS of gear not even break the top 5 in the bigger NPC shows..So whats the point of doing gear? TO impress the folks where I train? No thanks...My goal now is some abs, get in great shape, and just a polished physique- Bodybuilding is about a healthy lifestyle..I love pro bodybuilding though, even though I dont play that game.