Alone in a random, pointless, godless universe wouldn't bother you more? I think you just wanted to use the word 'macabre.'
godless? we are here, the universe
is us. Science says nothing can be created or destroyed, only transformed. so either something has existed forever and you are right, or, you are wrong.
Likely all of us will become part of the definition of that word.
What if they were right all along, that hell really does exists, and that it is on Pluto and we are pretty much all going there?
Realizations like these are in store for mankind, you should get used to the thought because you might be able to handle all of what's coming.
"And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the earth distress of nations, with perplexity"
"Men's hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken"