I never realized you were 40 years old.
If you were in your 20's or young then following your idol around like a lost dog is fine. At your age it is straight creepy. How do you not see anything wrong with it. Honest question,,,,do you suffer from mental health disability such as myself? That can be the only explanation for the way you act. Only with people in their 40's does that explain such behavior, its like seeing mentally challenged adults following teams or athletes around. Normal 40 year olds simply DO NOT exhibit this behavior. They may idolize an athlete from afar (as a fan in the stands), but they dont act the way you do. Something simply isnt right about that.