looking good or not looking good is only one of the many sides of ego... there can be many other egoistic sides, not just looks.
even you have to admit, ship, that you have alot of ego left when you have to constantly proof to people that you do or don't do something and you need to convince people constantly even though nobody asked... didn't you just say in your "this is the physique I strive for" that you want the hung penis of some shaman? isn't that ego?
me? hell yeah I have ego, when I go out, do this do that, I try to look my good self before I go, that's ego and living through other peoples expectations and the fake ass models that are meaningless, I know that... but I love the desire, I would love to just make people go ave and please everyone and just get huge self satisfaction...
one ego is also that not excepting any help from "certain people" just to show off... you know... same can be said about GIVING help... one is having sex with a woman, making her ejaculate but not bust a nut your self and tell to her face that; "yeah, i got you, you think I'm gonna bust a nut for you, no way... I know i can fuck you good and make you squeel but not gonna give my self satisfaction with you because that would make you feel special and adorable, hell no!" that's also ego...
what do you think