In late 2009 I decided to "bulk up". At that time my body weight was only 154.
So I ate everything. Ate 6-8x per day. Lifted hard. By mid 2010 I was up to 182. Of course some of it was fat. I was feeling like shit. Low energy from eating food all the time. My body constantly digesting and breaking down foods, feeling tired because of it. Looking like shit, bigger, but softer all around with fat around my waist and face. I was stronger for sure though. I could tell I was less attractive to women. I didn't feel healthy.
I got sick of living the bulking life and decided to cut back down. Started dieting, eating cleaner, doing more cardio. Now i'm back down to 158. I feel MUCH better. More energy. My body feels healthy and light, not bloated. Feel clean instead of being full of toxins. My shitting and digestion is back to normal.
I am getting more smiles from females again becuase of my lean neck and jawline, vascularity and muscle tone. Most women don't give a fuck about muscle size, they appreciate muscle tone, a hard body and vascularity, but sheer size usually doesn't impress them. Getting bigger and thinking it'll get you more pussy is a foolish road to walk on.
What did I gain from bulking up? 4 pounds of muscle.
What did I learn? I learned that being big does not feel good. It can look good sometimes if it's lean mass, but it definitely taxes your internal organs when you carry more weight, it's just nopt healthy. When you eat more food you tax your organs more, have less energy, your body is busy digesting all the time. Your heart is pumping blood to more tissue and working harder.
The bodybuilder diet, eating 6-8x per day. That really fucking sucks. I am REALLY happy to be eating 3x per day again like a normal person. Bulking is lame. Slow, steady, lean growth is what it's all about.
Bulked up = feel like shit, less energy, unhealthy, unnattractive, unathletic, losing.
Lean and cut = feel great, more energy, healthy, attractive, athletic, winning.
High bodyfat = fail. Cut = win. It don't matter how much muscle you have underneath it.