... but my belief that such a female exists continues to diminish.
I am 41 and was with a woman who, I thought, was my best friend, but she turned out to be just another royal turd with a lack of loyalty and conviction. It ended about two years ago and since that time I have found it difficult to even consider being in a relationship.
Even if I do find a girl whom I respect and come to trust, I do not think I will ever desire to marry ... or even live with her. All my peers are married and every one of them does nothing but bitch and complain.
I am not some super-duper catch with a Brad Pitt face and sexy six-pack, nor am I without annoying habits (is anybody?), but I am loyal, honest and affectionate. I have never been one to bang broads left, right and centre, and I have mostly been intimate with girlfriends. I am not a male tramp. I wanna bang every halfways decent chick I see, but it's not in my nature to "play the game". I find it sickening.
So what am I saying? Who knows. I am about to go do my deadlift session so perhaps I shouldn't be contemplating emotional matters at this time. But am I asking for a lot? A girl who is smart, trustworthy and true to her guy? If she has muscle and can put up with my heavy metal and horror movies, all the better, too.
Okay, time to yank some heavy shit off the floor.
Thanks for reading.