so basically these guys lift hardcore for fun/for cool dvds?
I worked most of my life as simple laborer. ten years of concrete work,
factories ive even done some geek shit like webmastering for 5 years
and working 100 hour weeks.
i don't work anymore. if i had to work i would die. so bodybuilding is
all I know. it keeps me sane occupied and goal oriented.
the my bulk of my life evolves around the lifestyle.
it consumes my brain and most of my time and i like it that way.
when i'm not thinking about training eating sleeping etc i try to
further my education in areas that interest me and that benefit me.
mainly ancient rome, religion, politics and the zeitgiest movement.
understand i do very damn little that i don't enjoy. i have no
desire to work, accumulate material wealth or chase whatever
the fuck the american dream is. Ive done all of that.
I bodybuild. i train with a show in mind, trying to put on any size
i can between now and then. moving forward always forward.
I understand that "then" may never come because i have life threatening
health issues. and if you ever do you may realize as I do, that loving yourself
for yourself and trying to be the best self you can be for you,
is an admirable goal in life.
none of us are anything special. you live you love you die. the end.
base yourself against yourself. what is spoken here would be like me
telling wes i'm gonna get on stage and beat him. that is not what bodybulding
is about to me. its not how i look to others or if i am bigger stronger. none of that.
which is why "bros" like us pass one another in gym and never utter a word.
because we know. natural bodybuilding is the most unforgiving hardest bunch of
worthless shit you may ever persue and never ever win a show nor place let alone
be considered a "big" guy.
I have no delusions, i know i do not belong on stage, but i have, i can and by
the power of zues i shall again. or I'll die and be happy either way.
if none of this registers then you are weightlifter. be happy with that and
the human you are. it doesn't make you less than. at least most of those guys
rarily obsess with giving it all up like we do. honestly it makes you smarter in
most cases. imho.