dude your a fucking loser.
its pretty simple
like what kind of person, let alone a 48 year old 'man' even does shit like this or behave in the manner you do?
your just fucked bro. no other word for it.
Im a loser?
A 42 year old man who starts threads to try and arrange fights whilst wearing an outfit that would make an elf look the norm.
A man who tells lies about going to a bodybuilding show and not going onstage only to find out later that he might have missed out on becoming a pro bodybuilder, if only he had gone onstage.

A man who wears flashy training shoes to impress 14 year old boys at the gym and feels proud when they comment on them.

A man who oils up in the gym changing rooms to have his pictures taken.

Dude you are like a ship that his been hit below the waterline at the moment, normally you would sink, but the guys here instead of ripping you will gang up and plug the hole with their asses.
This is 'getbig' and they look after their own, no matter how fucking sad and miserable they are.