I think you have extensive programming. This in NOT a joke BTW. Make what you will of it.
Re-imagine the moving scenes, flood each scene with violet and put a big brown X on each of those beings. Then, at the end, put yourself in violet with a brown merger symbol at the pineal. Then stay in chocolate brown for a while until you come back to normal. I will not explain here what is programming, why etc .. but you need to take control of it before it takes complete control of you. Stop with the Christ thing as well.. you have New World Religion programming as well as a bunch of other types...
The violet will filter and protext, and the brown X will short circuit the activated alters within you programming matrix. The brown merger will reintegrate those programmed personalities in your original personality.