Exactly, that's what I have been telling these fucking idiots the whole time, totally agree. 
I highly recommend you read this entire post. The truth hurts but...At least you have the control to change your impulsive erratic behaviors, although it will take effort.
First of all: You have no business posting anything on this board because you have no business taking steroids. And here is why.
It's obvious who here has spent YEARS researching AAS, as well as the plethora of ancillary products that are inherently needed in conjunction with their use, often before even starting mild doses. Why? Because steroids can fuck you up very easily as can even the most basic AI's and the like. The side effects of the entire array are serious and the legality etc. makes the whole process a very serious endeavor you will likely be involved with for the rest of your natural life, whether you like it or not.
My story is a common one, and it should be, I spent 2 years endlessly reading SILENTLY on multiple boards before I even dreamed of taking anything, sheer curiosity. Then it was another year before I actually planned my initial run and plan it I did. Hell I had a box of 100 18g Luer Lock 3ml syringes, 200 23g tips, and 500 alchohol swabs in a drawer for a year because once they arrived in the mail I got cold feet and decided to do MORE research before taking the plunge. Then my first cycle was 250mg of test...I went from a 425lb raw deadlift to an easy 600lb beltless deadlift in 6 months on 250mg test...From 205 to 230 with little fat gain. And more importantly learned the entire process backwards and front.
Your entire research process consisted of 1 drunken weekend... "You jumped into this shit like a 10 year old with ADHD and $5 in his pocket at the candy shop"
You didn't have the first goddamn clue about anything, and it was painful to read your posts. For example you were asking people on the G&O how to even get syringes because your local fucking pharmacy didn't sell syringes and syringe accessories. You mean your local mom&pop pharmacy didn't have BULK syringes and tips of varying sizes and types on hand? You don't say

Your whole "thing" screams of BiPolar Mania or OCD. An impulsive cluster fuck of bad decisions and/or lies to yourself and others.
You think you're funny, and are obnoxiously entitled, where you got your ego no one will ever know, because YLLS in every way...People paid attention to you because you were an obvious train wreck in the making...HTH.
You did no research whatsoever, you had and still have zero clue when it comes to diet, nutrition, exercise, basic goddamn common sense, none....And you jumped into a serious run with GROWTH HORMONE, 750mg test !?!?!, and a number of other things...I mean...It's just so much fail..And you are STILL NOTHING TO LOOK AT?!?! In one way or another you will pay dearly for your reckless abandon and stupidity of this much I'm sure.
So please before you even dream of posting again...READ SILENTLY there are countless very good forums out there 100% devoted to steroids..Lurk in the shadows where you belong. You don't need to ask questions because they have all been answered millions of times on the magical GOOGLE machine..You should look into it.