I have to say that it affected me in negative way, feeling empty hole in my heart. Be happy for your moms getbig.
Know still that this hole present to you a rare opportunity of filling that space in your heart with whatever you influence,to becoming an energy source instead.
I think for you some specialized waveforms is right to start of filling this hole with useful energy and make it an endless energy source would be good start.
Start out with an old vinyl album a few times a week while you're doing other things on the Internet, or for example working out. You will quickly start realizing your new energy pulse.