i went from 1992 to 2005 with no rec drugs,i smoked weed once in a awhile so i guess i wasnt totally drug free. anyway i stayed away from coke and pills ect for 13 yrs and then my buddy had a birthday party in 2005 and there was some fishscale on the table and they kept saying just do one bump and it wont hurt u,that one bump turned into me staying there till the next day sniffing lines and it started me on a weekend coke bender for almost a year straight. id get paid friday,go to spanish harlem in NYC and spend 300 bucks on a half ounce and come back to jersey and sell half of it to make my money back and have a quarter ounce to party with,not bad.but the point to the story is once u stop stay away totally or risk going back to that fucked up way of living,ill always have that urge in the back of my mind but i just have to stay positive and keep lifting and focus on the good things in life like my son and wife,right now i help out saint judes cancer hospital with some extra money i made instead of giving it to some scummy drug dealer who couldnt care if i lived or died