Who thinks they have mental issues/addiction

[mazfit]

Some of those are UK domestic UGL.
Do you not use pharma grade HGH?
Hyge is shite

Some of those are UK domestic UGL.
Do you not use pharma grade HGH?
Hyge is shite

Hyge is shit on what basis?

Real hyge from the right place is not shit. Or are you selling other hgh brands that's why ? Or are you just regurgitating online garbage? What tops have u used to warrant such a strong opinion

The uk forums have black tops with GH readings off the chart

You think I have the money for pharma grade hgh at 5-6 ius a day
Yeah right.

[mazfit]

Ugl yes and?

Where are you going to get a pharma blend with tren in it a pharmacy? Lol

Used pharma test no different from this test

Getting NPP pharma yeah good look with that

[heenok]

mazfit i think i saw your facebook page and you look nothing like a pro bodybuilder

are you sure you arent fantasising about all this ?

[mazfit]

How many times man

That mazfit isn't me! He is some fitness lad nothing to do with me

Fuking hell Jesus Crist do you not read my posts!

[Omega]

Hyge is shit on what basis?

Real hyge from the right place is not shit. Or are you selling other hgh brands that's why ? Or are you just regurgitating online garbage? What tops have u used to warrant such a strong opinion

The uk forums have black tops with GH readings off the chart

You think I have the money for pharma grade hgh at 5-6 ius a day
Yeah right.

You need to chill out.
I only use pharma grade HGH. Too many variables with generic and no generic I have used compares to proper HG hGH.

I have tried a few generics hence my opinion.

[Omega]

Ugl yes and?

Where are you going to get a pharma blend with tren in it a pharmacy? Lol

Used pharma test no different from this test

Getting NPP pharma yeah good look with that

Whats with the sarcastic replies?
Youre not speaking to someone who has only just began in this.
(HG Durabolin was last seen in the 90's)

I merely commented that its UK domestic and thats it.
One is Dhacks and not sure what the other is, can you tell me?

[NotMrAverage]

I feel alot like this bro even tho i am not a pro.

I was NUTS about bb from age 15-24. Moved to amsterdam at 21. Just did one contest in my original country at age 17,,,after not even a year of training lol. I came in 4:th. Kinda regret that comp but the experience was great. Did 2 other comps on Netherlands where i looked better. Placed 6:th out of 18 in the the light heavys at 22 and 3:rd in the light heavys at age 23. My comp weight was never more than 200 pounds (88,7kg) to be exact and i am 5.9. In 2004 i met and trained with Dorian Yates at Ballys in amsterdam. He was smaller then but still nasty he said he was 113 kg around 8%. Myself was at my biggest/leansest ever then (still smaller than him though lol) at 107kg and 6-7%. He told me I could make it if my mentality was,,,to bad my body was'nt...

After this i was involved in some serios accidents, one which sent me to hospital for over 1 year. Rehab time after they let me loose was 2 years. No way of even thinking about going to the gym in those years. I was in a wheelchair most of the time.
Since I was in so much pain they put me on 200mg morphine (i.v) 180mg oxycodone, 40 mg valium, 8 mg xanax,
So even after recovery I was now a hardcore junkie. I stayed like this until jan.1 2012. Then I got subutex and stopped most benso use completly. I now use maybe 1 xanax bar every 10 days and that is it.
Jan,1 2014 i started to hit the gym hard again. And thank god for muscle memory because almost all muscle I lost are back now. I just need to get my fat levels down from 14% (at 106kg) to atleast 8% (i have done a transfer like this before and ended at 95kg). I usually gain some muscle during diet because i'm much stricter with everything then. Really need to adapt my onseason strategy to my offseason dietplan more or less.

I will start with today. I am 33 now and I would like to compete agian. But then I will do some masters show just for the fun of it.
I should not be alive now cause dotors said I would die in 1 year because of my wounds. Afterwards they say my body saved  me. I lost from 107kg to 73kg in that one year.

I anyone care about wgat i took:
When I placed 3:rd at dutch nationals in 2004 i took:
900mg EQ ew
500mg test prop (would def be lower now) . Took 100mg e weekday (not sat/sun)
Last 4 weeks 50 mg anadrol ed
Last 8 weeks 50 mg winstrol ed

Where is the gh? sorry did'nt have money for it...Tren was not so easy to get (atleast for me) back then. I use it today and i love it!

[Meaningless]

I have a problem and an addiction yes. Im 5'7.5, 96kg/212lbs 12-15percent bodyfat. Ive posted pics before, not arsed digging them up. Im nothing spectacular by pro or top amateur standards but I look impressive to most people. I always use moderate doses, 2.2g is the highest I ever touched, that was for only a week or 2. Currently using:
900mg test enth
300mg deca
200mg tren enth

Been on gear for 2.5 years without a break now. 25 years old, training and eating since I was 16, first competition at 16 and competed in 5 shows, winning 3 of them. I havent competed since 2011, I have quit competing as I just dont have the desire or drive for it anymore, but I always want to be a big guy, as said it becomes part of your identity. I would be suicidal if I couldnt have kids, thats my only concern with gear use.  I would love to come off and be happy just working out for fun and fitness, not chasing numbers on the scale, not ever "feeling small", but I am not that mentally strong.

[tstmaniac]

I have a problem and an addiction yes. Im 5'7.5, 96kg/212lbs 12-15percent bodyfat. Ive posted pics before, not arsed digging them up. Im nothing spectacular by pro or top amateur standards but I look impressive to most people. I always use moderate doses, 2.2g is the highest I ever touched, that was for only a week or 2. Currently using:
900mg test enth
300mg deca
200mg tren enth

Been on gear for 2.5 years without a break now. 25 years old, training and eating since I was 16, first competition at 16 and competed in 5 shows, winning 3 of them. I havent competed since 2011, I have quit competing as I just dont have the desire or drive for it anymore, but I always want to be a big guy, as said it becomes part of your identity. I would be suicidal if I couldnt have kids, thats my only concern with gear use.  I would love to come off and be happy just working out for fun and fitness, not chasing numbers on the scale, not ever "feeling small", but I am not that mentally strong.

If the benefits outweigh the risks than keep doing what your doing..I use to blast and cruise heavy doses for years and decided to come off for good.. Might possibly use trt in the future when I absolutely need to..I had a great time and wouldn't change any of it... I came to a point in My life where the risks didn't outweigh the benefits of heavy cycles.. It took a few years to come back to normal but I feel good now

[ritch]

I have a problem and an addiction yes. Im 5'7.5, 96kg/212lbs 12-15percent bodyfat. Ive posted pics before, not arsed digging them up. Im nothing spectacular by pro or top amateur standards but I look impressive to most people. I always use moderate doses, 2.2g is the highest I ever touched, that was for only a week or 2. Currently using:
900mg test enth
300mg deca
200mg tren enth

Been on gear for 2.5 years without a break now. 25 years old, training and eating since I was 16, first competition at 16 and competed in 5 shows, winning 3 of them. I havent competed since 2011, I have quit competing as I just dont have the desire or drive for it anymore, but I always want to be a big guy, as said it becomes part of your identity. I would be suicidal if I couldnt have kids, thats my only concern with gear use.  I would love to come off and be happy just working out for fun and fitness, not chasing numbers on the scale, not ever "feeling small", but I am not that mentally strong.

you're gonna look very old ahead of your time. At least you don't do orals though.

[mazfit]

I have a problem and an addiction yes. Im 5'7.5, 96kg/212lbs 12-15percent bodyfat. Ive posted pics before, not arsed digging them up. Im nothing spectacular by pro or top amateur standards but I look impressive to most people. I always use moderate doses, 2.2g is the highest I ever touched, that was for only a week or 2. Currently using:
900mg test enth
300mg deca
200mg tren enth

Been on gear for 2.5 years without a break now. 25 years old, training and eating since I was 16, first competition at 16 and competed in 5 shows, winning 3 of them. I havent competed since 2011, I have quit competing as I just dont have the desire or drive for it anymore, but I always want to be a big guy, as said it becomes part of your identity. I would be suicidal if I couldnt have kids, thats my only concern with gear use.  I would love to come off and be happy just working out for fun and fitness, not chasing numbers on the scale, not ever "feeling small", but I am not that mentally strong.

TBH bud, your doses are pretty low/  moderate tren is very low.

if you came of to have kids ect youd more then likely be fine.

you could always lower your dose even more, and run hgh with it

[mazfit]

Whats with the sarcastic replies?
Youre not speaking to someone who has only just began in this.
(HG Durabolin was last seen in the 90's)

I merely commented that its UK domestic and thats it.
One is Dhacks and not sure what the other is, can you tell me?

other is Muscle @ Pharm - ive seen it being made - hence my descision to use this brand. It is properly dosed.

in terms of Hyge - yes many many many fakes, it is a mine field.

but the hygene pharma with counterfit codes are real hgh and it is currently overdosed. , has been tested on other sites with very high serum and Igf1 ouput hence why i feel so rough on just 5 ius full muscles, great fatloss, water from within the muscle. Although very tired hung over type feel tight hands, joint pain at anything over 8ius.

was not trying to be sarcastic. probably all the tren.

dhacks - its the other gear of choice in the UK very good price. only one vial as muscle @ pharm do not to a high test blend.

[Omega]

other is Muscle @ Pharm - ive seen it being made - hence my descision to use this brand. It is properly dosed.

in terms of Hyge - yes many many many fakes, it is a mine field.

but the hygene pharma with counterfit codes are real hgh and it is currently overdosed. , has been tested on other sites with very high serum and Igf1 ouput hence why i feel so rough on just 5 ius full muscles, great fatloss, water from within the muscle. Although very tired hung over type feel tight hands, joint pain at anything over 8ius.

was not trying to be sarcastic. probably all the tren.

dhacks - its the other gear of choice in the UK very good price. only one vial as muscle @ pharm do not to a high test blend.

I feel amazing off pharma gh although I havent ventured above 7iu.
Heard good stuff about muscle@pharma as well.
I tend to stick to pharma grade where available and then AP and Baltic.

Whats your take on running gh in higher doses but shorter bursts?

[Overload]

I don't believe i have mental issues, but i am addicted to vagina, which kind of goes hand in hand with being big and lean all the time.  For some reason, no matter how hot the girl is, after 4-6 weeks I'm seeking a new vagina to penetrate.  I will often rotate back to old girls when i remember something special about their maneuvers.

This drive for the great vag seems to be more intense while using Tren.

[mazfit]

I am also addicted to the vag on tren my mrs just has to bend over n i turn into a rapist.

catch her getting dressed fucking hell.

ive never ran pharma actually mate, ive heard good things about pharma hgh going around the UK but tbh even at cut prices that i get everything for i dont have the cash

even though this is an addiction i try to have a balanced life, going out with mrs doing different things all costs money.

if i hasd an extra 200 a month it would go on pharma lol

im finding greater fatloss with ghrp2 and mod x 2 -4 a day with 2iu hgh dosed 20 mins after so it piggy backs the dose. your getting around 3.5 ius of hgh per shot

noticed though last few times ive mega dose ghrp2 i cant hear out of my ear lol

[whitewidow]

I am also addicted to the vag on tren my mrs just has to bend over n i turn into a rapist.

catch her getting dressed fucking hell.

ive never ran pharma actually mate, ive heard good things about pharma hgh going around the UK but tbh even at cut prices that i get everything for i dont have the cash

even though this is an addiction i try to have a balanced life, going out with mrs doing different things all costs money.

if i hasd an extra 200 a month it would go on pharma lol

im finding greater fatloss with ghrp2 and mod x4-4 a day with 2iu hgh dosed 20 mins after so it piggy backs the dose. your getting around 3.5 ius of hgh per shot

noticed though last few times ive mega dose ghrp2 i cant hear out of my ear lol

Don't rape your wife. She  might come back at you one day for that. Goddamn that Tren you get must be strong. I'm fucking with you I have been there b4. I got raped once by a chick! No joke! she got me when I was high on my pills!

[mazfit]

id love to be raped by a chick even a 5/10 chick there would be no complaints atall

id point her to the MT11 in my fridge if i couldnt get hard n tell her to jkab it in my cock

[whitewidow]

id love to be raped by a chick even a 5/10 chick there would be no complaints atall

id point her to the MT11 in my fridge if i couldnt get hard n tell her to jkab it in my cock

I know it sounds like a joke but I took my oxycontin and alot of xanax. This was after my carwreck a few years back and I was loaded on oxycontin, 6mg of xanax and i took 4 somas and this chick friend of mine stopped by and I didn't remeber shit! little blurs. I kind of remeber her giving me a blowjob and then I was past out and I would wake up and she would be riding my cock so I did know what was going on so I wouldn;t call it rape but she took advantage of me wehn I was real high on drugs.

[efanhowz]

I get a vial of test for less than $15 and I consider 9ml a week and some Orals megadosing
But when you throw in the anabolic compounds and of course gh then you start spending more

But back to addiction: females and alternating benzos to sleep, luckily have reduced alcohol to once a week

I think my biggest issue is just the fear of losing what I have gained and unfortunately my identity has become the big intimididating muscular guy. Except anyone  like coworkers that knows me finds out soon I am fun loving and easy going. I'm not huge, but I work in a luxury gym chain and in my area the main demographic are middle aged parents so I am definitely the biggest and leanest %99 of the time

Of course you know that the bigger you get the more male heads you turn. But when I cut for 3 months on 350mg test and 300mg tren and dropped down to 190lbs single digits bf at 5'10 (monstrous! Jk)  I turned more female heads. Mainly because my bloated test double chin was almost gone. I still have the double chin even with abs

It's all about balancing everything in your life, never permanulking, and also believing In yourself that you have more to offer than your physical appearance. For me I rely on my schooling/certifications, own experiences, and believing in my own judgment to keep me moving forward and successfully progressing clients....which in turn makes me successful at what I do

Fuck it time to up the dose!

[whitewidow]

I get a vial of test for less than $15 and I consider 9ml a week and some Orals megadosing
But when you throw in the anabolic compounds and of course gh then you start spending more

But back to addiction: females and alternating benzos to sleep, luckily have reduced alcohol to once a week

I think my biggest issue is just the fear of losing what I have gained and unfortunately my identity has become the big intimididating muscular guy. Except anyone  like coworkers that knows me finds out soon I am fun loving and easy going. I'm not huge, but I work in a luxury gym chain and in my area the main demographic are middle aged parents so I am definitely the biggest and leanest %99 of the time

Of course you know that the bigger you get the more male heads you turn. But when I cut for 3 months on 350mg test and 300mg tren and dropped down to 190lbs single digits bf at 5'10 (monstrous! Jk)  I turned more female heads. Mainly because my bloated test double chin was almost gone. I still have the double chin even with abs

It's all about balancing everything in your life, never permanulking, and also believing In yourself that you have more to offer than your physical appearance. For me I rely on my schooling/certifications, own experiences, and believing in my own judgment to keep me moving forward and successfully progressing clients....which in turn makes me successful at what I do

Fuck it time to up the dose!

I knew I wasn;t the only guy using benzos to sleep properly. It sucks but I rather take benzos and sleep then be up all night and feel like garbage all day. How can you train if you don;t sleep. Why some of us need benzos to sleep? My guess is some of us have more stress in our lives plus gear/stimulant use can make it tough to sleep.

[dustin]

If you bodybuild that means that you inherently juice (because lifting without juicing is just lifting weights, you can't bodybuild without juice!). If you bodybuild, you're probably a masochist. But who cares? If you put in the time and effort, it's your decision. Are you mental? lol... probably. No one does this shit without being a little mental.

At least we can go to bed knowing that we're relatively disciplined psychos... who else has the balls to stick needles in themselves and kill themselves in the gym? Not many people. Glad we've got our little esoteric circle of fucked up psychos to shoot the shit with. I know a handful of guys in real life who juice too but it's nice to go online too and shoot the shit with other psychos across the globe lol

[local hero]

Doesn't matter where your from, get two juice head bodybuilders together and you have the same conversation only in different accents...

Since I've stopped bulking up and dieting down for shows my mental addiction is almost gone... In clothes I don't look that much different off or on anymore as I never get out of shape anymore, I spent 12 yrs between 18 and 20st, and it is hard not to be known as big so n so anymore, now im a fit healthy 16st, who does a little course in the summer with the rest of the year off

But im also settled down with 2 kids, I think it depends on your priorities and where you are in life, altho it still irks me when people ask if I still train anymore....

[Omega]

Doesn't matter where your from, get two juice head bodybuilders together and you have the same conversation only in different accents...

Since I've stopped bulking up and dieting down for shows my mental addiction is almost gone... In clothes I don't look that much different off or on anymore as I never get out of shape anymore, I spent 12 yrs between 18 and 20st, and it is hard not to be known as big so n so anymore, now im a fit healthy 16st, who does a little course in the summer with the rest of the year off

But im also settled down with 2 kids, I think it depends on your priorities and where you are in life, altho it still irks me when people ask if I still train anymore....

Is it the fullness you have lost now at 16st?
I find its that fullness which I lose when off, that fill that it gives.

[local hero]

Yeh, you look flat for sure, in the gym all pumped you still look amazing,  on a good day it even looks like your still on,out of the gym you have no pop and look nothing special..im 6'1 so 16 st doesn't look big bigot just looks athletic

If I go on gear ( moderate doses ) im a stone heavier and a few % leaner, in normal clothes you can barely notice, unless you wear paint on tshirts... The key is staying lean when off, keep your abbs,bicep veins etc..look like a bodybuilder, if you get fat when natty it looks like you don't even work out, you turn into a 'stocky' man

In my mental illness days id eat extra food to keep above 18st, I would never allow my weight to drop under unless I was specifically dieting for somthing..

[Omega]

Yeh, you look flat for sure, in the gym all pumped you still look amazing,  on a good day it even looks like your still on,out of the gym you have no pop and look nothing special..im 6'1 so 16 st doesn't look big bigot just looks athletic

If I go on gear ( moderate doses ) im a stone heavier and a few % leaner, in normal clothes you can barely notice, unless you wear paint on tshirts... The key is staying lean when off, keep your abbs,bicep veins etc..look like a bodybuilder, if you get fat when natty it looks like you don't even work out, you turn into a 'stocky' man

In my mental illness days id eat extra food to keep above 18st, I would never allow my weight to drop under unless I was specifically dieting for somthing..

TBH mate a lot of it comes from experience.
I sit around 16-17st when on and about 15.10-16st when off.
Even at 16+ its too heavy IME. I am 5'11" and thats too much at my height.

I try to get the full look without the additional weight gain.
When I go off my abs come out and everything because I lose the water etc.