Wife, family, career as well? Man i have a hard enough time mentally reasoning myself into blasting my docs rx of test and running a legal oral from blackstone here n there.
It takes a really dark n depressed person or maybe just extreme delusional narcissit to WAnT/be able to handle that type of use you mention. Half the time i pin, im like "wtf, why do i even bother with this"? Its an empty vapid existence IMO when your life revolves around where your next order is coming from, will i get caught, where do i pin all this, is this even real stuff, hows my health holding up, my coworkers think i juice, oh shit im getting gyno, need an AI now, blah blah...i dont really buy that guys at that level of use can function normally and have healthy life outside of the gym. Maybe im wrong and im sure there are exceptions but holy shit, its a full time mind fuck to be worrying about gear use all day for years on end.
For a short while in my late 20s, i felt like i was letting myself get consumed with it and i had to step back and take a look at what i was doing. I didnt really like who i saw in the mirror (not looks, just mentally. I wasnt doing my hobbies anymore. Was consumed with food, reading about drugs, and gym). If i had to go and do this all over again, i would juice hard in college for tail, and then when adult career shit started i would back off all of it and get into craft beer instead 
it becomes completely normal after a while
if you do ANYTHING for long enough it simply becomes the norm...
pinning goes pretty much automatically
you dont have to worry about ordering or getting caught if you "know someone", or some just hoard a ton.
preparation is key too
having AIs, Serms etc on hand takes away any possibility of (visible) side effects
the health part, well, most simply push these thoughts aside.
i know many natural guys, even complete beginners who are more strict (in a negative way) and pigheaded about their meals, macros, workouts, rest time and stupid shit
its fucking retarded because it simply doesnt give ANY results naturally.
if you actually have a shot at going pro or achieving something by revolving your life around bodybuilding then its justifiable - at least if you do it because it MAKES YOU HAPPY and not because youre unhappy to begin with.
