Hi Freak,
Thanks for your comments. A lot of respect and wisdom!
I have a few comments/ questions. (sorry for my bad english)
-However; Are you not afraid to dy young or suffer one day, due to your (continuously) anabolic use? (the so called "payday" you mentioned earlier in your post above)
-Are you using also HGH?
- Are you still working as a medic surgeon?
-At a certain age > 40 years. your body needs more time to recover than in your 20 years age after an AAS cycle. Without doing TRT, do you not thing Test500 plus Deca 300 is too much for me? (HPTA suppression, More chance getting Cancer, Heart attacks etc and specially prostate enlargement!)
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-Is it not better in my case, to lower the test to 250 plus add an androgeen like Primo or Masteron instead of Deca?
I am 45 years old.
Sorry for disturbing you.
Thanks Freak and wish you all the best.
-My pleasure.
-Yes, I do have concerns about my health, and that is why I regularly check my blood pressure and lab values. I do think that is very important. It's one thing to say that you have never experienced a problem using this or that, but you don't know for sure if you aren't checking. I got to a point, however, after being off for many years, where I just didn't feel like myself any more. Yes it's egoic and yes it's not important to anyone in my life but me, but I have always felt that my personality was defined in part by my large size. I realize that it is an illness in-and-of-itself, but that's just how it is for me. Plus I absolutely love the whole thing--the clean diet, the training, the way I feel when I'm jacked... Sure, at 52 years of age I'm not training at the level I did when I was younger, and it's been a long time since I've seen the bar bending while I'm benching. I go more for high volume training now, low to moderate weights to true failure, almost no rest in between sets. Some times I'll do an entire giant set to a single song from start to finish (Five Finger Death Punch, typically

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-I haven't used GH. Not at all against it, and certainly a possibility in the future. Just expensive.
-I am a very busy surgeon at a very famous hospital, at what I would call the pinnacle of my career.
-Yes, you will need more time to recover. Any cycle is going to shut you down for a period of time, and it won't depend on whether you did 200 mg of this or 500 mg of that. Remember, I am never offering medical advice here. I am giving comments based on what the poster asks, and what I would do if I were that person.
What you really should do is ask yourself what you wish to accomplish:
What do I expect to get out of doing a cycle now, at this age?
Am I willing to go through a post cycle period where I may not feel as good as I do right now?
Am I planning on doing more cycles in the future, or am I not sure right now?
How is my diet and training right now (honestly)?
Could I achieve what I want simply by improving those things, and skip AAS altogether?
Only you can answer these questions.
freak