I read this post of yours. Some of it I agree with and some of it I don't. You say you are not smart, but that you have a fair level of common sense. Not all "smart" people have common sense, but anyone with fair measure of common sense is smart.
Your childhood experiences helped make you the adult you became. You didn't mention the good experiences you had growing up. Assessing folks as individuals is a good thing. You are able to see black folks individually based on their actions and reactions, but you seem to think all Democrats and liberal minded people are alike. They aren't.
When I said that I don't know people like the one's you describe, I meant know them personally, not just know about them or meant them. I've spent a fair amount of time around politicians both Democrats and Republicans, some who are okay people and some who are not so great.
There's white trash, black trash, brown trash, yellow trash and red trash. You can find them anywhere you go not just in Arkansas. LOL!
People like me? Do you really know me? I've met a lot of people in my lifetime and I've yet to meet anyone who is exactly like me. My wife used to refer to me as her complicated husband. She meant it as a compliment. I may be full of myself, but I believe I am unique. I suspect you are too.
I know you only by your words here. As for being unique? My mother taught me a line from Swift's "Gulliver's Travels". The Lilliputian King is speaking with Gulliver who tells him that he is unique and so is Gulliver. "Therefor", says Gulliver, "If I am unique and you are unique, then we are the same. We are equals."
Being struck with a baseball bat at a very young age by a teenager may be a contributing factor in my lack of intelligence as the world knows and accepts it. I am not mad at the person that did it. Well, not anymore. I recall it vividly as does my mother if she has a lucid moment from the onslaught of Dementia.
I have good memories of my childhood prior to that moment. It crushed my skull. The 2X4 that was used on me later in life put a good dent in the back of my skull. It seems that stupid, white kids that are small, skinny and weak are fair game to dipshits of every color. I took the anger and frustration and built myself up so that they would not dare attempt to harm me. Some did but most did not. High School was a nightmare but I woke up and used it to fuel my exercise regimen. I am fiercely American. My family is LEO and Military but I could never join because I was way past "legally" blind (uncorrected) and again, the very definition of stupid.
My family on my mother's side primarily Jewish and very liberal and very Democrat. They have no soul to speak of, having burned it with hatred of others including those that liberals claim to "love" and "want to lift up". I was visiting once and went to a high school with a relative during the summer. I had been lifting for about a year and was much larger and while at the school, I witnessed a youngster being picked on and asked people what that was about. They said he was just a wimp that the tough kids chose to pick on.
I walked over and came between the little kid and the bigger one just as he was about to hit the poor kid. He punched me. When you've had your skull thumped with a bat and a hunk of wood a teenager's punch isn't shit. I told the jerk that I was attending next year and that I would be watching over the little kid and that even if he didn't see me, I would know because I then introduced him to my relative that did go there. What he did would be told to me and I would not be kind. I would humiliate him in front of the entire school even more that he was experiencing at that moment (a crowd had gathered).
My life is not unique but I had parents that taught me well. My dad tried to teach me to defend myself when I was younger but I was very small and weak. So I learned to run. Yeah...Forrest Gump, I know! In the novel, Gump was around 6' 5" and 225 lbs.

The point I am attempt to impart to you and anyone that has made it this far is this: When our life is over, we will not be able to stand judgement and say to whomever it is that may judge us, "I was told to do thus" or, "I had no choice" or "I looked away rather looked within to find the courage and resolve to do what was not only right, but needed".
Taking from those that work to give to those that refuse is not righteous. If you are for indefinite welfare, you are against me. If you feel, rather than think, that white people owe black, yellow, brown, red, homosexual, bi-tri and pansexual, trannies et al, a living for some crimes against their "race" made in the past by no one living against no one living, then you are against me.
If you think socialism is good, then you are against me. And by me, I mean a whole lot more good, hard working people throughout the world.
Even if there is no judgement, prior to breathing our last I prefer to breathe as a free man. Not a plow horse.
I don't "hate" you but I don't agree with you on everything, especially the cuckolding of America and by that I mean Americans. No hyphen allowed. Those like Straw Man squeal like the pigs of Animal Farm. Those they purport to support, e.g., BLM, LBGT, "native" Americans, et all, will have no problem making bacon out of them one day.
They are not your friends and they will gladly fuck up anyone that gets in their way because they deem "it" to be "their way".
I am not smart but neither am I ignorant. Be well.