#1.
Bro I just went over to the ninthteenth hole to get some cigarette butts and after I grab some there was this guy smoking a cigarette he was just about to put it out so I waited behind him he couldn’t even see me after he put it out I went and grabbed it from the bud tray he’s just about to enter into the ninth hole but he stops turns around and looks at me dead in the eye and says “really really bro are you serious” acting like if I’m some big-time lowlife that’s picking up cigarette butts so I say what the fuck did you just say to me dick head you say that shit to my face asshole instead he turns around and goes back into the place after I’m saying why don’t you say that shit to my face asshole Ill fucking knock you the fuck out, It’s like you’re the stupid guy for paying for cigarettes when there’s constantly ones in a cigarette ashtrays fucking rich piece of shit. I give him one thing he’s got balls cause I had a bandana on my head.
#2.
I would’ve thought I was some cholo or something and Not said shit
IQ <79 100%
This kid was an ex-heroin user and on methadone, then relapsed and I cut ties with him. He supposedly has a "brain tumor" and has epilepsy/seziures and is like 5'8" and skinny-fat 140lbs and lives with his mommy on disability and thinks hes gonna knock out a grown man. lol. ("The 19th Hole" is a sports bar & grill by the country club I live in.)
Also had to distance myself from him when he starts telling me about how he was in jail he says he was kicking heroin for like 2 weeks and would sleep in his bunk all day and I told him that shit would never fly in any jail pod or prison unit I was ever in and we'd have you rolled out in a day. The Wood Rep/Right Hand would make sure you are up and out of your bunk every morning for breakfast and there was no sleeping during the day and you would shower at least once every day, twice on days with rec, and you're not missing rec. You might get to lay in your bunk for like the first one, maybe two days if you are kicking heroin but you're sure as fuck showering both those days.
He says there was no way he was going to let anybody bully him and that if anybody tried to bully him he would run straight to the door and hit the button and call a guard and have them rolled out, and the punk seemed to be proud of it and says he was in the trustee unit, where there's no politics, but you still gotta fucken shower every day and unless you work the night shift, you're up all day.
Couldn't believe my ears. Kids proud of being a snitch and if he's proud of snitching IN jail, if he gets arrested again, he'd likely have no problem snitching on me.
This dumbfuck was telling me one day about how he'd dip the rubber plunger of old syringes in butter so they'd be "smooth like new". Hahaha. Told him that's a good way to have a pulmonary embolism or stroke, having introduced oil in an IV shot, and this fucking genius says "oh, that must be how I got my tumor" bwahahaha.
Dumbfuck explains to me how he does IM heroin shots with full insulin syringes, by holding the needle a good 8-12" away and stabs it into the muscle like John Travolta in Pulp Fiction stabing Uma Thurman, and he can't figure out how why he keeps bending needles.
Then he complains that he keeps getting abcesses and shows how he grabs a handful of the skinny fat on his thighs and shoots there, essentially doing a sub-q heroin injection. Hahaha. Dumbfuck is exactly why I never associated with drug users, always asking "if I would nod" and mentioning how he would "nod" and "nod this.. nod that", like a fucken bum on a bus stop. Genius had a bright idea to tell his mommy that he was going to quit methadone because he "hated being chained that place", despite only having to go to the fucking clinic once a month and piss clean, which meant he only had to not use fucking heroin for three whole days before going in, and all he had to do was take the fucking methadone that he had and you wouldn't be fucking sick. So he tells his mommy that he was going to go back on heroin for a month to get off of methadone and then taper off the heroin.. Sounded proud of his plan when telling me and didn't understand why I said "that was fucking stupid". hahaha yea buddy, that worked great the first time right? That's why you're on 100mg methadone/day hahaha. I wish i could live with my mommy and spend my whole disability check on heroin and ride around on my electric bicycle, picking cigarette butts out of ashtrays. Playing VR video games all night till for 5 a.m. and sleeping every day until 3 p.m. That's the fucking life.The "rich piece of shit" line too, tells me this kid is likely a liberal snowflake. Has no idea that the guy he was talking to probably takes home 60k/yr, and if the kid would invest maybe a couple months worth of his little disability check and learned a little bit about fucking finance he could sit at home and fucking day trade and make a decent amount of money and not have to have his mommy driving everywhere.
God, I hate these people. Parasites on society. Just OD once and for all. Oh, supposed to meet up with this fucking kid one day and I get to Starbucks and text him that I was there and you takes fucking forever and by the time he shows up he says oh I just got your text, while I was there waiting for like 30 fucking minutes. And he shows me his phone to show me that he just got my text and he has me entered into his phone as "******* Guy I see" , **** is obviously my name, but "guy I see"?? Wtf is that? I know think you realized I saw that and he tells me that it it was supposed to say guy I see with the leg brace, from when I had my leg in the thigh to ankle immobilizer when I broke my leg. But none of that shit was in the name part. Just "guy I see". What kind of creepy fucking shit is that?
And the dude's been over at my place and I was barbecuing some burgers before and I heard him talk on his phone checking in with his mommy and the way he was talking sounded fucking suspect as fuck as well. I'm telling him about my first daughter when I was 17 are mom was is import model chick and meta The Little Gym in the townhome complex I lived in and how she moved back to Laos with her mom after having the baby without telling me and how I have no way of finding her because I just know the girl as "Sue", which was short for her Lao name, which is super long and I have no clue what her last name was and the only way I could possibly find her would be to go back through issues of import tuner and super Street and Ollie's Lowriding magazines from late 90's and find her features and find the photographers and see if they have her real name, and even then I'd be lucky to find her sister in SD. And he tells me a story about how he has a daughter supposedly with some "model chick who's dad was rich" or something and it sounded like the 40 year old virgin when he's at the poker table talking about how boobs feel like bags of sand, like this kid has never touched a breast, much less impregnated a girl... And here he has me in his phone, not as "*** sponsor", but as "****** guy I see".
Next week he'll likely be texting me if I know where to get methadone cuz he'll be out of heroin, and money, and can't get back into the methadone clinic for another 8wks.
Okay I will try to not let this be long winded, but I usually fail with that.
Girls and sons who have not been loved by their fathers seek attention once teens and adults to compensate for what they didnt have originally. Fathers either left them alone, or were distant most of the time and not encouraging them. Some even despised them which would shape their personality and the way they d interact with others for the rest of their life. They are extremistic in everything they do, always looking exageratly for attention, and have troubles adapting to society's rules, because they also have troubles defining their own identity and respecting authority and hierarchy. Also boys who got picked on by others during childhood and adolescence -often sons without a father figure- try to compensate by lifting weights, to develop muscles and survive in ther male world. They re insecure because they re girly, childish, feminine having been raised by a single mom. They lift obsessively hoping it will transform them into men, to compensate for their lack of influence from a father figure that was not there. Unfortunaltey they can get as big as they can it doesnt cure their insecurity and who they truly are, how they grew up being raised by a single mom. They re no as manly as other men whatever they do, and they often have a big lack of masculine presence they dont know how to balance, hence often being borderline homosexuals while trying to get their manhood back thru various manly activities (mma, cars, weight lifting etc). They are often the ones that, in order to get respect from other males will go the steroids route to get even "bigger" attemptint to cure their insecurity , but being natural not being "enough", they still feel "too small", insecure, amongst other males. The lack of a father figure also often means they didnt have guidance to continue studies and are often working shitty manual jobs. You can dominate in life with studies, a good job that requires the use of all your best strenghts, which allows you to contribute fully to the specie that spawned you. By being successful socio professionnaly and by giving birth and raising happy individuals who will also contribute to mankind, to the specie. This is the benevolant, healhty way of contributing to mankind; you dominate by giving as much as you receive using your full potential. And then, there s everything else. The others main strategies of survival. For example, the uneducated loser with charisma linked to his muscles, who only exists because of his muscles, who only impress, dominate others with them. But to keep being respected -feared- and to keep impressing, the muscles must stay, and you want more, so at some point considering they re everything you have, you go the steroid route. No chance he gets an education, a good job, he didnt have a father to give him guidance, he s an atheist, he s an asshole, insecure about his own sexuality,so he survives in the gutters, the low part of the pyramid, can barely work a normal job and gets pissed by everything, always thinking about what he could have done if only his father actually invested in him, gave him soemthing instad of abandonning him. There you have it, the roots of good and evil, where it all starts for a male in the human specie. Who raises secure kids, sons and daughters, who contribute to society, and dont fall for all the extremes, traps? The hard working faithful man. You godamn motherfucking moron , how is the medical establishment responsible for fathers abandonning their kids , sons and daughters, who will barely survive depressed all life long ? How is the medical establishment responsible for that in the first place? You re confusing the order of things. You re ignorant. You must be young! Of course they re striving on other people who come from shity families psycho behavorial troubles, developing medications that dont even work or at best keep people asleep so they dont figure they ve been fucked in the ass by their own parents, genitors, who didnt have the decency to care enough about them after giving birth to them. Moral, spiritual decline is what leads to suffering in all human beings. If psychologists, psychanalysts exist nowadays, if most people try to find a meaning to their life in pseudo philosophies from Orient, if they need steroids, anti depressants, sleeping aids, thats because love is disapearing , because families are dysfunctional, and all of this is happening because the Words of God have been abandonned. All these bullshit pseudo medicaqtions full of side effects were developed as religion was gradually abandonned , because people fell for all the traps of modernism, and lost faith. And all these jobs, all these ''docs'' are assholes who need mentally ill people to survive, to have a job, they strive on other people problems, they strive on the disapearing of love and they give bullshit solutions to their ''customers''. And they re the biggest atheists, the most anti christian assholes on earth, you connect the dots.This is the irony of the whole thing. Again, you fail to understand the order of things. You put the consequences before the causes, which is ilogical, and ignorant. Most human beings are only caring about what tomorow will be made of. Job. Dinner. Sex. TV, Internet, workout. Bed. We re designed to do so by evolution. Tomorow i can anticipate this, this, and that. And? And that's about it. That's how our brains work. Currently we all collectively know some major shit is going to hit the fan in some weeks, months. Yet we cant do anything about it individually speaking. We re just waiting for it to happen. Says a lot about our so called free will, our "power". We also know we re going to go thru something that alrdy happened in the past to our ancestors thanks to historians who wrote it all on paper so we can compare our current situation with theirs centuries ago. Yet we can t do shit about it even if we know it alrdy happened. We re as powerless as were our ancestors when they described the fall of the roman empire of occident. There can only be individuals solutions, no collective solutions. Nations dont exist anymore. Industrials, megacorporations use journalists , medias and politicians like pupets. And they are only following their own greed and dont give a single damn about the globalized mankind under them in the societal pyramid. They re only purpose in life is to stay at the top, and prevent people from lower positions to get to them and replace them. One can only decide to prepare himself and his loved ones to what s going to happen. He, she, cannot change the world. He cannot change the rules of nature.
He can only adapt, to survive...
