I have never claimed natural or 19 my left arm is 18.5 though. Sorry I don't have hips and compliments attacks whatever feeds my current mania trying to stay motivated to train despite an injury. I figure if I work out for 15 minutes I get to post a flex pic on the internet anyway I can keep motivated. But yes also want to see if I am actually makign progress between pics that other people see or if it is all in my head. I mean I will think I am skinny and fat then jacked then realize I may just be average and fooling myself with lighting and mirrors I lose 5 lbs and feel like a child I gain 5 and cant stop eating I am so excited to see the scale move then I am sick and throwing up with acid reflux. Its some kind of manic eating body image disorder more appropriate for a teenage girl than a grown man I get that. I get nervous and pinch my fat in public always find myself grabbing it. I train at home I don't go to a gym with other meatheads. I see pro bodybuilders and feel like a small child but I can't get there but I need hamstrings I need arms I can't just be denied. But the body is old the digestive system doesnt work I have sleep issues and freaking arthritis old injuries you name it I am too old for this shit. But I want to be more tomorrow than I am today is that too much to ask? I want to have shrinkwrap skin. I want to be vascular but also massive I just want more. So laugh make fun whatever I know you cant be in better shape at 50 than 25 but fuck it I am going to try anyway
Early bhanks dead sea scroll , delivered in a Ulysses-like rambling internal soliloquy....unveiling selfie post motive, doubts and a vague actual self awareness of some of his many failings, now long since buried under a dull repetitive "hater" thud poster mentality.
What happened Bhanky, was your inner child also expunged like other matters in your life