It's hard to say.
In the moment I tend to be very negative. Only see pot holes all around me, only see people who are out to get me, only see large problems that are beyond my control that are only getting larger- at just about every level of my life upto and including national and world events.
Ive been through quite a bit. Overtime I've become hypervigilant. Very suspicious of people and their intentions.
But usually when I look back, thinking back to different times, different points in my life, it's allways positive memories. Thinking back over time Ive led a very good life. But as I get older, each passing year feels like the walls are closing in that I have to be more cautious about the decisions I make. I guess thats what experience teaches: Ive seen this before and I recognize all the problems it presents.
There's a lot I am grateful for, mostly my children and my wife. But am I content? No. I constantly feel the need to keep growing in someway. Keep developing mentally, keep positioning myself. Always have goal of some kind to reach.
I think for most men, at least the kind of men I relate to, are rarely 100% content. But there comes a time in the later stages of their lives when they become at peace with theirselves and at ease with the world around them....and usually sometime shortly afterwards....it's over.
