Whatever I don't even care I am going to drop about 10lbs get my muscular endurance and conditioning back up with some high reps this next month. I will then push heavier and increase my calorie consumption again this winter. I am going to continue to adjust my training to incorporate some new movements for shit and giggles. If you want to compare military presses hit your max on camera and I will do the same but 155 is horseshit.
The whole BB dream can now be seen as the delusion it always was for you.
The drugs will not fix your foolish decision to get this sketchy surgery.
Your identity is going have to grow past being a wanna be competitor because your abdomen is never going to be as strong again.
You’re going to lift too hard or too much and you will get constant reminders that the show is over.
Your bionic joints might work great, but this mesh is garbage sown to your damaged body.
You can’t put a band-aid on everything and pretend like you are young again.