You're having a rough day.
But buck up peanut, tomorrow's another day.
Rest up, come back refreshed, and maybe you'll do a little better.
Today I learned a new word about new words! neologism.
"We shall do a great deal for the science of esthetics, once we perceive not merely by logical inference, but with the immediate certainty of intuition, that the continuous development of art is bound up with the Apollonian and Dionysian duality: just as procreation depends on the duality of the sexes, involving perpetual strife with only periodically intervening reconciliations."
Let it flow bro, you can break the strictures of reified thought.