you've got some serious issues with big dudes, my guess is that either you had a girlfriend who you thought was THE ONE who fucked a big bodybuilder or you constantly got beat up in high school by big dudes, either way you need to let it go and heal your wounds.
Funny thing is I appear big. Obviously I wouldn't to people on this site or bbers, but the average person thinks I spend all my time in the gym or something. I just happen to be extremely ripped and strong. As far as getting beat up in high school, not too many people fuck with a kid who lives and breathes martial arts, I was and still am a bad guy. And although I respect a lot of people on this board who have been cool to me, lets face it: Do you really think ANY girl would choose a Meatheads body over a lean, muscular dude? Keep looking at People magazine, maybe Ronnie or Jay will be voted most beautiful one day. Damn, you are stupid.