I know I do.
Remember you dont know half of the shit thats happened in my life lets just leave it at that.
It's just the "icing at the cake"
But you are right and I know and I WILL so no escuses.
Whatever has happened to you in your = the past. It has probably shaped your identity and your beliefs which in turn causes the tendency to not be able to make a solid decision and stick with it. There is nothing out there in the real world that = causing your lack of motivation/inability to stick with something, so it = now all up to you.
In all seriousness, if the problem is really fucking with you and something you seem to not be able to "shake" on your own, go and see a psychologist, they can probably help you work through some of it. (hint: Ask for EMDR if you want to shake that tendency).
If you want to deal with it on your own, stop using it as an excuse. As it = standing today, the earlier shit is basically "winning over you" and fucking up your future. THat you = allowing that = pretty weak.
Hopefully, this post made you lose your temper you fucking moron. (and see that shrink).