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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #350 on: March 26, 2022, 09:26:07 PM »
what is  '' porn addiction '' . . . ? ?

it's what guys have who are too unattractive or lacking the social skills needed to act out on a real sex/love addiction.

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« Reply #351 on: March 26, 2022, 09:39:01 PM »
i'm watching it now.. as someone with an actual sex addiction that started when i was probably 15, i can relate. what's the saying? 'a fisherman always recognizes another fisherman across the room'? same with the scene with Abella Danger. luckily he found a way to make a living doing it, and didn't have to work a day job and have the sex addiction interfere, or in all reality, run his daily life, which is what it does. plus he's found a woman who's accepting of his profession and allows him to 'act out' his impluses, those girls are hard to find, and when you do, they're usually just like you and will eventually cheat themselves, not to get even, but to 'act out' as well. once you 'figure it out' and find out the formula, you learn it's common for women as well, just not as many act it out.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #352 on: March 27, 2022, 01:21:14 AM »
i'm watching it now.. as someone with an actual sex addiction that started when i was probably 15, i can relate. what's the saying? 'a fisherman always recognizes another fisherman across the room'? same with the scene with Abella Danger. luckily he found a way to make a living doing it, and didn't have to work a day job and have the sex addiction interfere, or in all reality, run his daily life, which is what it does. plus he's found a woman who's accepting of his profession and allows him to 'act out' his impluses, those girls are hard to find, and when you do, they're usually just like you and will eventually cheat themselves, not to get even, but to 'act out' as well. once you 'figure it out' and find out the formula, you learn it's common for women as well, just not as many act it out.

It's funny how some of us may have opportunities at different times.

Being autistic, my tendency is to take things literally - there's not much room for nuance, which is why I write in objective terms, and deal best with Yes and No [affirmative] answers, and much prefer the American Constitution which is written in ABSOLUTIST TERMS, rather than the bullsh-t Canadian Charter, which only allows freedom of expression for "reasonable" speech.

Ultimately both are just pieces of paper, but to hope such documents last, they MUST be written absolutist terms, so that no future dictator gets in power, who feels all of his attempts at control are "reasonable".

Anyway, because of this, I took mainstream news on rape very seriously, and assumed all penises are deadly weapons, and that women are terrified by men, and most sex is rape, etc.

The impression many would get hearing feminists in the news talk.

So because of that, I didn't lose my virginity until age 21...by exactly the time that my sex drive started waning. Although ultimately, I'm glad I didn't start having sex until a bit later in life. I had a pretty good run from 26 to 36, and more or less am back to treating sex as I did as a teenager for certain reasons [the #MeToo movement is insane, and out to make examples of men for anything and everything, and I think porn and much of sexuality is degenerate and disgusting].

I would care a whole lot less about Rocco if he wasn't propped up as practically a hero in this documentary. It's just gross to me. Mouth-raping an elderly woman, and feeding another woman his shit-stained cock after pulling it out of her shit-stained balloon knot, and comforting her that the only issue is how it smells?  ???

Fucking disgusting. I'd like to see Rocco incarcerated for this, raped in prison ass-mouth, and ultimately executed.

Meanwhile, I used to be a libertarian. Go figure.

Another part of me says - to each their own. But I still think Rocco is a pervert, and presumably slightly mentally ill.

Someone once told me porn stars are just a cross-section of regular people. I really don't believe that - at the very least, most are probably feeding drug addictions.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #353 on: March 27, 2022, 02:13:58 AM »
It's funny how some of us may have opportunities at different times.

Being autistic, my tendency is to take things literally - there's not much room for nuance, which is why I write in objective terms, and deal best with Yes and No [affirmative] answers, and much prefer the American Constitution which is written in ABSOLUTIST TERMS, rather than the bullsh-t Canadian Charter, which only allows freedom of expression for "reasonable" speech.

Ultimately both are just pieces of paper, but to hope such documents last, they MUST be written absolutist terms, so that no future dictator gets in power, who feels all of his attempts at control are "reasonable".

Anyway, because of this, I took mainstream news on rape very seriously, and assumed all penises are deadly weapons, and that women are terrified by men, and most sex is rape, etc.

The impression many would get hearing feminists in the news talk.

So because of that, I didn't lose my virginity until age 21...by exactly the time that my sex drive started waning. Although ultimately, I'm glad I didn't start having sex until a bit later in life. I had a pretty good run from 26 to 36, and more or less am back to treating sex as I did as a teenager for certain reasons [the #MeToo movement is insane, and out to make examples of men for anything and everything, and I think porn and much of sexuality is degenerate and disgusting].

I would care a whole lot less about Rocco if he wasn't propped up as practically a hero in this documentary. It's just gross to me. Mouth-raping an elderly woman, and feeding another woman his shit-stained cock after pulling it out of her shit-stained balloon knot, and comforting her that the only issue is how it smells?  ???

Fucking disgusting. I'd like to see Rocco incarcerated for this, raped in prison ass-mouth, and ultimately executed.

Meanwhile, I used to be a libertarian. Go figure.

Another part of me says - to each their own. But I still think Rocco is a pervert, and presumably slightly mentally ill.

Someone once told me porn stars are just a cross-section of regular people. I really don't believe that - at the very least, most are probably feeding drug addictions.

completely understand your viewpoints.. where youre coming from..

but, it's simply because you can't relate. most people can't relate, and you, especially, taking things literally, being autistic, i understand... but the things we engage in, it's mutual. the girls search out guys like us and finally live out their fantasy's and such. the part about rocco busting a nut in the older womans mouth, well, that's something kinda extreme..hell, it may not even be true but merely a fantasy of his, but still... for the most part, the girls are active participants in what we do... as upsetting as it is to us. hell, would i want to marry a woman who is like me? hell fucking no.... i'd be disgusted. i lost count at i don't want to say.... and some of them would have made good wives, despite some being like me... and there are a lot of missed opportunities. it's a weird thing... a life full of more sex than the average man could believe, and more intimacy, but at the same time less intimacy. every guy things he'd love to be a porn start, but when you actually do it and are exposed to the girls who do it, it's really disheartening and lonely, for both you and the girls.

that being said, i only did a few vids/scenes in the early 2000's, and then over the covid shutdown featured in some girl's OF.. kinda surprirsed nobody on here found it. lol. plane tickets were dirt cheap and was bringing in easy PUA money... ffs, i almost married a pakistani girl who worked for the DOD and moved to DC... anyways, OF gave a lot of girls the taste of what it was like to be wanted by a lot of anon men... selling feet pics.. then footjob pics.. then nuude, noface, solo stuff... then "BF" stuff, and when the BF stuff paid better, but wasnt big enough..... it was kinda sad to see gf's reaching out for other guys... me... cuz we had big dicks to fuck'em just for more money/better content.... it satisfied a need, but it was also really sad and gave a bad feeling in your gut afterwards.. honestly, i'd trade all that for the one girl who can do it all and accept it. lucky me, rn i have that. the urge to go 'seek' is still there, but with her is satisfied.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #354 on: March 27, 2022, 04:32:46 AM »
i'm watching it now.. as someone with an actual sex addiction that started when i was probably 15, i can relate. what's the saying? 'a fisherman always recognizes another fisherman across the room'? same with the scene with Abella Danger. luckily he found a way to make a living doing it, and didn't have to work a day job and have the sex addiction interfere, or in all reality, run his daily life, which is what it does. plus he's found a woman who's accepting of his profession and allows him to 'act out' his impluses, those girls are hard to find, and when you do, they're usually just like you and will eventually cheat themselves, not to get even, but to 'act out' as well. once you 'figure it out' and find out the formula, you learn it's common for women as well, just not as many act it out.

Serious question here. What was your household like? Every womanizer I’ve met had mommy issues and was raised by a single mother or had a negligent or aloof dad. Same goes for every dude I know who is a serial “boyfriend”, going from one “relationship” to the next, constantly needing some damn validation from a woman.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #355 on: March 27, 2022, 04:35:47 AM »
You like talking about Rocco way too much.

It serves me right for scrolling past the movie on Netflix. For as little as I watch that shitty streaming service, It's annoying that I happened to notice it again.

Anyway, he's disgusting.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #356 on: March 27, 2022, 05:14:28 AM »
completely understand your viewpoints.. where youre coming from..

but, it's simply because you can't relate. most people can't relate, and you, especially, taking things literally, being autistic, i understand... but the things we engage in, it's mutual. the girls search out guys like us and finally live out their fantasy's and such. the part about rocco busting a nut in the older womans mouth, well, that's something kinda extreme..hell, it may not even be true but merely a fantasy of his, but still... for the most part, the girls are active participants in what we do... as upsetting as it is to us. hell, would i want to marry a woman who is like me? hell fucking no.... i'd be disgusted. i lost count at i don't want to say.... and some of them would have made good wives, despite some being like me... and there are a lot of missed opportunities. it's a weird thing... a life full of more sex than the average man could believe, and more intimacy, but at the same time less intimacy. every guy things he'd love to be a porn start, but when you actually do it and are exposed to the girls who do it, it's really disheartening and lonely, for both you and the girls.

that being said, i only did a few vids/scenes in the early 2000's, and then over the covid shutdown featured in some girl's OF.. kinda surprirsed nobody on here found it. lol. plane tickets were dirt cheap and was bringing in easy PUA money... ffs, i almost married a pakistani girl who worked for the DOD and moved to DC... anyways, OF gave a lot of girls the taste of what it was like to be wanted by a lot of anon men... selling feet pics.. then footjob pics.. then nuude, noface, solo stuff... then "BF" stuff, and when the BF stuff paid better, but wasnt big enough..... it was kinda sad to see gf's reaching out for other guys... me... cuz we had big dicks to fuck'em just for more money/better content.... it satisfied a need, but it was also really sad and gave a bad feeling in your gut afterwards.. honestly, i'd trade all that for the one girl who can do it all and accept it. lucky me, rn i have that. the urge to go 'seek' is still there, but with her is satisfied.

You know, I just realized something, ESFitness:

I'm taking the instances of Rocco shoving his shit-stained cock into various women's mouths [especially the elderly woman of his mother who had recently passed on], and basing my entire perception of him on that.

Yes, I think porn is dirty. It's not for me - honestly, even sex isn't for me these days. But...providing Rocco gets consent, I guess it's none of my business. I still don't "approve", but consent is the important underlying principle. If he has that, I won't fight it too hard...even if I do think it's dirty.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #357 on: March 27, 2022, 05:18:48 AM »
Serious question here. What was your household like? Every womanizer I’ve met had mommy issues and was raised by a single mother or had a negligent or aloof dad. Same goes for every dude I know who is a serial “boyfriend”, going from one “relationship” to the next, constantly needing some damn validation from a woman.

I think it's genetic, at least in part.

In my case, I think about sex one time fewer than every five days. It's truly mind-boggling. I stopped watching porn in 2019 [not fhat I ever watched it much anyway], and now I barely have any releases at all frankly. And my sperm count appears to have declined massively - having been 1.18 billion as recently as March of 2018.

I might still be traumatized from a bitch I was seeing in 2018, because nothing else would explain everything fully.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #358 on: March 27, 2022, 05:20:33 AM »
honestly, even sex isn't for me these days.


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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #359 on: March 27, 2022, 05:30:17 AM »
i'm watching it now.. as someone with an actual sex addiction that started when i was probably 15, i can relate. what's the saying? 'a fisherman always recognizes another fisherman across the room'? same with the scene with Abella Danger. luckily he found a way to make a living doing it, and didn't have to work a day job and have the sex addiction interfere, or in all reality, run his daily life, which is what it does. plus he's found a woman who's accepting of his profession and allows him to 'act out' his impluses, those girls are hard to find, and when you do, they're usually just like you and will eventually cheat themselves, not to get even, but to 'act out' as well. once you 'figure it out' and find out the formula, you learn it's common for women as well, just not as many act it out.

how does someone with a sex addiction cope in prison?
Just asking....

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #360 on: March 27, 2022, 05:50:50 AM »
I think it's genetic, at least in part.

In my case, I think about sex one time fewer than every five days. It's truly mind-boggling. I stopped watching porn in 2019 [not fhat I ever watched it much anyway], and now I barely have any releases at all frankly. And my sperm count appears to have declined massively - having been 1.18 billion as recently as March of 2018.

I might still be traumatized from a bitch I was seeing in 2018, because nothing else would explain everything fully.
This is why as an adult I cannot wrap my head around “dating”, “seeing,” and hanging out” with a woman.

 Like, for what? So they can run the guy’s life, drive him up a wall?!

Women are for breeding and child raising and to be obedient wives and a career in some cases. Outside of these roles, they become a burden on society as is evident to any astute observers.

Somewhere in time in the modern world men started thinking of women as entertaining and fun creatures with tits and a vagina that provide nothing but fun times to men.


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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #361 on: March 27, 2022, 07:04:36 AM »
how does someone with a sex addiction cope in prison?
Just asking....



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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #362 on: March 27, 2022, 07:24:55 AM »
Geez. Battle of the novels with Matt and ESF posting. Please stop quoting each other when you answer, or at least, blank it out.

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« Reply #363 on: March 27, 2022, 07:54:53 AM »
Geez. Battle of the novels with Matt and ESF posting. Please stop quoting each other when you answer, or at least, blank it out.

Or just shorten the quotes.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #364 on: March 27, 2022, 12:07:33 PM »
it's what guys have who are too unattractive or lacking the social skills needed to act out on a real sex/love addiction.
Not just guys but (hot) women as well. There's a youtube channel about sex addiction by Jace Downey. Sex was a sex and porn addict for years and lost jobs because she called off so she could masturbate all day.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #365 on: March 27, 2022, 12:43:52 PM »
sex addicts are people who are people who get caught cheating on their wives, its an excuse

People who stay home all day jerking off are not sex addicts, they are called teenagers.

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« Reply #366 on: March 27, 2022, 01:23:15 PM »
completely understand your viewpoints.. where youre coming from..

but, it's simply because you can't relate. most people can't relate, and you, especially, taking things literally, being autistic, i understand... but the things we engage in, it's mutual. the girls search out guys like us and finally live out their fantasy's and such. the part about rocco busting a nut in the older womans mouth, well, that's something kinda extreme..hell, it may not even be true but merely a fantasy of his, but still... for the most part, the girls are active participants in what we do... as upsetting as it is to us. hell, would i want to marry a woman who is like me? hell fucking no.... i'd be disgusted. i lost count at i don't want to say.... and some of them would have made good wives, despite some being like me... and there are a lot of missed opportunities. it's a weird thing... a life full of more sex than the average man could believe, and more intimacy, but at the same time less intimacy. every guy things he'd love to be a porn start, but when you actually do it and are exposed to the girls who do it, it's really disheartening and lonely, for both you and the girls.

that being said, i only did a few vids/scenes in the early 2000's, and then over the covid shutdown featured in some girl's OF.. kinda surprirsed nobody on here found it. lol. plane tickets were dirt cheap and was bringing in easy PUA money... ffs, i almost married a pakistani girl who worked for the DOD and moved to DC... anyways, OF gave a lot of girls the taste of what it was like to be wanted by a lot of anon men... selling feet pics.. then footjob pics.. then nuude, noface, solo stuff... then "BF" stuff, and when the BF stuff paid better, but wasnt big enough..... it was kinda sad to see gf's reaching out for other guys... me... cuz we had big dicks to fuck'em just for more money/better content.... it satisfied a need, but it was also really sad and gave a bad feeling in your gut afterwards.. honestly, i'd trade all that for the one girl who can do it all and accept it. lucky me, rn i have that. the urge to go 'seek' is still there, but with her is satisfied.

At the risk of coming across as a shit-stirrer...

If only there was a GetBigger (who is perhaps currently banned) who had the internet skills to track this sort of thing down...

Hmmmm...🤔
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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #367 on: March 27, 2022, 01:39:54 PM »
I`m a sex addict and had more ass than a toilet seat in my day.....did stuff to women that shouldn`t have been done to a farm animal but they were willing and they enjoyed it.......and they loved me for it............fucking pigs.  :D

Of course I wasn`t the perverted pig, they were.  ;D

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« Reply #368 on: March 27, 2022, 08:50:18 PM »
how does someone with a sex addiction cope in prison?
Just asking....

porn and and female staff.

i'd pay $20-25 for a porn mag to be brought in. 'laminate' all the pages with clear packing tape. rent out the whole mag for $5-10 for an hour-2hrs for maybe a week or 2, until the pages start to get creased or it gets worn. then i'd cut out every pic in the mag, obviously it's printed on both sides to had to decide which pics i thought would sell the best or which i personally liked. and depending on what they were, sell them for $2-15ea.

then when people couldn't pay a debt, i'd take the pics as payment if they had any. if they bought it for $5, i'd give them maybe $2 and resell it again for another $5.

they staff i won't go into because i know your autistic ass would whine about it.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #369 on: March 27, 2022, 09:05:33 PM »
At the risk of coming across as a shit-stirrer...

If only there was a GetBigger (who is perhaps currently banned) who had the internet skills to track this sort of thing down...

Hmmmm...🤔

i was live-streaming every night while on furlough Oct-march. flights were dirt cheap. round trip to D.C. was 151. san jose was 63. phoenix was like 38. miami 168. new york 202. and a few others. met'em all on my stream. not all were OF. if they were, they paid for the tickets and the room plus 2-300 bucks. if it wasn't for OF content, i'd pay for the flight, they'd still cover the rooms.. check in about noon-2pm, hangout/relax for an hour or 2 and get to work about 3/4pm going rounds till 1-2am, sleep for a few hours and get 2-3 more hours content in the morning before checkout at 11.

had offers to do my own, ppl who'd manage the content. promote it and such, but with my job, didn't want to risk a page in my name. besides it'd be difficult to explain to future gf's. since a guy's OF is gonna be purchased 85% by men, if not 95%.

judging by how popular i was during that period, and everything i did and the fact NOBODY from here has ever said anything about it to me, kinda shows how sheltered and isolated some of these people are. lol

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« Reply #370 on: March 27, 2022, 10:36:45 PM »
porn and and female staff.

i'd pay $20-25 for a porn mag to be brought in. 'laminate' all the pages with clear packing tape. rent out the whole mag for $5-10 for an hour-2hrs for maybe a week or 2, until the pages start to get creased or it gets worn. then i'd cut out every pic in the mag, obviously it's printed on both sides to had to decide which pics i thought would sell the best or which i personally liked. and depending on what they were, sell them for $2-15ea.

then when people couldn't pay a debt, i'd take the pics as payment if they had any. if they bought it for $5, i'd give them maybe $2 and resell it again for another $5.

they staff i won't go into because i know your autistic ass would whine about it.

Jerking off isnt sex, a sex addict would want someone to fuck
And as for staff, yes you are right, I imagine it happens in female prisons a lot more than male.

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« Reply #371 on: March 27, 2022, 10:46:25 PM »
Jerking off isnt sex, a sex addict would want someone to fuck
And as for staff, yes you are right, I imagine it happens in female prisons a lot more than male.

you're speaking about something you clearly know nothing about.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #372 on: March 28, 2022, 12:25:38 AM »
I imagine putting a female guard in a male prison would be like letting a child with a sore tooth inside a candy store. A woman in an environment packed with alphas is a recipe for trouble

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« Reply #373 on: March 28, 2022, 01:40:22 AM »
I imagine putting a female guard in a male prison would be like letting a child with a sore tooth inside a candy store. A woman in an environment packed with alphas is a recipe for trouble

it's not usually the female guards.. at least not for me. there was only one that crossed the line and it scared the shit outta me cuz i worried if she would get all emotional and do something stupid. ime, it was nurses//med-tech's.

looking back it's super weird to think of an inmate, locked up for a serious violent crime to be engaged in a semi-relationship with a nurse inside a prison. what kinda girl would do that? at least they knew i wasn't cheating on them lol, i'm sure that played a big part, and they were young. 23-25, not much younger than me, but by the time i was 23 i'd already done plenty.. drug smuggling from mexico, arrrested and jailed in mexico, detained//arrested fined at the bored by customs for smuggling, shootouts, standoffs... etc could go on and on, suppose i used that experience as leverage because they tended to ask (they'd already seen me on tv i found out)...

besides me, i only knew of two other guys who'd fucked female guards. one was a friend who turned out to be a rat, and he fucked the guard once he paroled (then came back). shit, no, make that 3... 3 over 5 years, not including me. all at the same prison.

if you don't have a sex addiction, it's hard for you to understand what it is. obviously, every human has a sex drive and a drive to mate and procreate. right? for some people, it's not just that... it controls their daily life. my very first addiction, before any opiate, was girls. and that started looking back i could honestly say probably age 9/10. i was always a good looking kid who had a bunch of girls fighing over him (Me) in the playground, and had a girlfriend (Julie Miller... she didn't age well lol). that girl was the only reason i was in GATE in ELementary school... then in high school, when i was 14/15 all of a sudden i had a 'body'... and that got me the attention for girls. my entire life from age 6/7-now has been dictated by attention/love/affection/sex from girls... i traded me. my body. my big dick. my everything, for that attention/love/affection, and i gave sex as a payment. i'd trade sex for love and attention.

that's what sex/love addiction it. i get it, most don't understand it. it's likely the same for rocco and that girl english woman at the end of the film. we're all damaged. we just find different ways to cope with it.

..... and the above is what led me to an opiate addiction. because that opiate gave me the same 'warm hug' women gave me. the same satisfaction. take away the opiate's and what did i do? relapsed back into sex/love addiction. i'm ok with that.lesser of two evils.

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Re: Revolting documentary: Rocco
« Reply #374 on: March 28, 2022, 01:58:59 AM »
it's not usually the female guards.. at least not for me. there was only one that crossed the line and it scared the shit outta me cuz i worried if she would get all emotional and do something stupid. ime, it was nurses//med-tech's.

looking back it's super weird to think of an inmate, locked up for a serious violent crime to be engaged in a semi-relationship with a nurse inside a prison. what kinda girl would do that? at least they knew i wasn't cheating on them lol, i'm sure that played a big part, and they were young. 23-25, not much younger than me, but by the time i was 23 i'd already done plenty.. drug smuggling from mexico, arrrested and jailed in mexico, detained//arrested fined at the bored by customs for smuggling, shootouts, standoffs... etc could go on and on, suppose i used that experience as leverage because they tended to ask (they'd already seen me on tv i found out)...

besides me, i only knew of two other guys who'd fucked female guards. one was a friend who turned out to be a rat, and he fucked the guard once he paroled (then came back). shit, no, make that 3... 3 over 5 years, not including me. all at the same prison.

if you don't have a sex addiction, it's hard for you to understand what it is. obviously, every human has a sex drive and a drive to mate and procreate. right? for some people, it's not just that... it controls their daily life. my very first addiction, before any opiate, was girls. and that started looking back i could honestly say probably age 9/10. i was always a good looking kid who had a bunch of girls fighing over him (Me) in the playground, and had a girlfriend (Julie Miller... she didn't age well lol). that girl was the only reason i was in GATE in ELementary school... then in high school, when i was 14/15 all of a sudden i had a 'body'... and that got me the attention for girls. my entire life from age 6/7-now has been dictated by attention/love/affection/sex from girls... i traded me. my body. my big dick. my everything, for that attention/love/affection, and i gave sex as a payment. i'd trade sex for love and attention.

that's what sex/love addiction it. i get it, most don't understand it. it's likely the same for rocco and that girl english woman at the end of the film. we're all damaged. we just find different ways to cope with it.

..... and the above is what led me to an opiate addiction. because that opiate gave me the same 'warm hug' women gave me. the same satisfaction. take away the opiate's and what did i do? relapsed back into sex/love addiction. i'm ok with that.lesser of two evils.

Correct, women in general working in prisons. Just couldn't think of any other female working there but the guards. Women function on emotions. Logic and common sense come second. They are drawn to alphas and most guys in prison are alphas full of healthy testosterone. And of course, women love ''fixing'' men. A perfect combo. While nice guys bring flowers and ''do everything right'' cause they saw it in a Disney cartoon, they give the best sex and fall head over heals for bad boyz :D