Allright fellas, I'll freely admit that I'm nothing special, but I'm trying to get back into some kinda decent condition. And since I'm trying to be open and honest here let me add one more thing. I had a pretty bad accident when I was stupid drunk, you see I was playing a little one on one basketball with another intoxicated friend of mine, and I tokk a nasty fall while trying to do some airborne acobatics and of course I fell on my ass, and to brake my fall I put out my left hand to catch myself and I really fucked up my shoulder. It's called a subluxation of the clavical bone comig near the humurus, sorry I don't know the correct terminolgy. Anyways, I just shook it off like a drunk dumbass and the next morning I was black and blue in this area where the clavical meets the shoulder joint with that bone protruding a bit. I have a 2nd degree subluxation. Anyways, I just left it untreated. Later I kinda came to my senses and went to the doc, and he said I copld have it surgically repaired or just live with it, so decided to just live with it. Also, he told me to never lift more than 100 pounds on the bench.
That happened bout 4 years ago, and to be honest I'm a pussy and the fear of it kept me from really going all-out. No, I'm not making excuses here, I'm just telling how it was. So that's why I kinda just fuck around with my training, coz I'm afraid that I could completely fuck this shoulder up big time. But I'm gradually gaining confidence, and hopefully I'll be able to really hard again. And I'm not looking for any sympathy here, I"m just trying to come clean and set the record straight.
And this arrogant talk of mine was just a false bravado, and maybe even my way of trying to psyche myself up, but it didn't work, coz I didn't reallly change so much. So now, I'm gonna try and put a lid on it, and just train and STFU as far as what I will do or accomplish. I'll keep my 3 Phase Project thread going, but I'll really try and make an effort not to come across as such and arrogant ashole.
P.S. Good work che
CHE>dj