well, in onlyme's defense he did get bit by a fuckin brown recluse. I have a buddy that got bit by one on his face and he has NASTY permanent scarring. He has skin from his ass patched to his face to cover a hole in his cheek, and hes got strange bald patches on his head, has a speech impediment now, is blind in one eye and he's bound to a wheelchair for life. Those spiders are nothing to fuck with.
Onlyme is lucky to be walking and talking
Thanks M.O.S. and in regards to this. I jsut want everyone to know. I have never blamed the spider bite for my weight gain. The bite was something that put me in a state where I really couldn't do shit but lay there and crawl around my condo on my hands and knees. People who saw it for the first 4 years or so saw how every month it had some weird reaction where it swelled up to 30"+ and got red and so hot the skin would peel off. It also leaked some kind of liquid. It was something no one knew what to do about. I would go into a gym and then be so sick afterwards I couldn't do shit. I have never experienced depression and have alway been the guy is always happy but I got into a depression that kicked my ass. I was training 2 times a day before I got bit. I was riding my bicycle to and far the gym twice a day 4 days a week 7 miles each way. On weekend I pulled a 120;b truck tire around Diamond Head or around Honolulu. I was in great cardio shape. So to have everything fucking stop all of a sudden kicked my ass.
Now, comes something I think about all the time. I see people who have gone through way worse than me. I see them all happy and getting back into shape. That kills me to see how they can do that I couldn't. I can''t believe I can't just train through the pain and keep eating good. But I guess I am weaker than I thought. Then Jason Pegg comes on here and he blows me away. To compare what happened to him and me is like day and night. I feel like a little wimp pussy compared to this guy. I am crying and using a fucking spider bite as an excuse and this guy gets his shit all fucked up battling in a war. He single handily got me really thinking.
I know for a fact that if what happened to me happened when I was in my 20's I would have been fine. I had no problem back then cause my metabolism was great and my energy level was off the charts. Now being close to 50 I see some differences. It is a little harder to get back. Usually if I took time off and came back barely benching 315, in 3 weeks of training I am back doing 405 for reps no problem. It is a little discouraging for me to train and have to stick with 315 now and figure it might take me another month or so to do 405. So it is very mental for me and I am trying to push through that barrier. Physically I think I am fine now (no pain) it is my mental state I need to work on. But it is coming around.
Also, Medford I truly am sorry for saying the shit I said to you. You are trying to get into shape and that is great. I have so many people and even companies telling me what they would offer me if I got back into shape. They tell me how inspirational it would be and every talk show in the country would book if I lost 200+ pounds naturally. So I do have a lot of incentives. Not even including my kids and grandkids. I have a business I am starting that I HAVE to be in shape. I am traveling so much starting after Summer I need to get into shape. SO I really do have the drive now.
Anyone and I am EVERYONE who knows me knows I am not like that. I don't say shit about anyone. I let people do what they want as long as they don't do shit to me. And even then it usually takes a lot to get me going. I don't have a temper. I don't get mad. I am just to laid back. But for some reason being attacked by some on here got to me. This has never happened to me. My mental strength has really been weakened since my bite. So sorry for all the shit. And even Squad, the guy was cool and his banter on others though annoying at times is actually pretty funny. And I can see he has an upper body in size like me. I don't train legs either. My calves normally though are 21" but my thighs are about 27 or 28" So compared to my upper body my legs are twigs.
Anyway, i am done with being a dick. I know some will come on here and say "MELTDOWN" but it isn't. I have always been upfront and I always will. If I don't answer a question it is most of the time because I didn't see it. If I still dont answer it is probably because I think you are just busting my balls.