i find the people who truly are sincere are those who have gone thru some ish. For instance, while in college I had a summer job, and there was this dude who had cheated on his wife. The mess that he went thru, showed him that, the way he was going was not right. He became faithful, and he showed a certain "realness", that many Christians who shout and scream, don't have. Why, because they have never really been tested.
This is so true. I'll speak on my own self here. I was just as you speak.....until I was tested. I'm currently going through one of those test where you just hit rock bottom and thinks it's all over. After beating myself up, asking why, this and that, world is over,what did I do to deserve this, this is too much to deal with, you don't understand what I'm going through...etc.........Al
l I did was "went back home".
I went back to my foundation on how I was brought up which was in church as a child in a religious family, and turned it over to GOD to handle this for me, accept his mercy and take things day by day to humble myself and reach my full potential as a human being for me in all aspects of life.
I was the kid who had the backing, but I didn't believe like everyone else I guess. Guess you could say I was lost and needed a reality check like this to make me decide was I going to continue to ignore, run and take the easy way out or do the opposite, show mercy, forgive and change...take the high road which is a lot harder. I chose to take the high road.
Funny thing is mentally I'm very intellectual. Thought I could figure out my troubles. Very cerebral type. Not this time. I had NO answers. For the first time in my life, I felt helpless. Of course I talked to myself and knew this is happening for a reason, and that reason was for me to just go back home. Go back to my roots man.
Man since I did that, the load off of my back was surreal. It's almost like I feel like a completely different human being when I just let go. All I did was turn this battle raging in my mind, the current situation, and all my troubles over to him. I just have to do my part now. You see my entire life I'd been harboring so much pain and I didn't know how to let go. I never really ever had a piece of mind (looking back at my life) until I just let go man.
It's a great feeling to know this battle is not mine to fight anymore. I just have to do my part and continue to walk the walk now in every aspect of my life and praise. I'm at piece now and everybody can see it and hear it in my voice as I go through my troubles. Everyone is amazed at the strength and courage in the way I'm handling things. I myself even sometimes can't believe the amount of character and courage I truly had inside of me.