you know, I was fortunate to train beside chris benoit many times, which came after the steroid abuse part of my life. We exchanged hellos each time, but as I sit here, I often feel like Chris might feel as if he is to blame for the condition of his son due to the hormone use during his career. Having to live with that maybe there is a chance that his hormone use could have allowed his son's condition, Im sure it was a dagger in his heart at times, along with all the other problems. I hate that this has happened, because now my own girlfriend is believing all this "steroids are the culprit and the reason he did this" and is now looking back at my past..................sa d thing is, that she is black and I always felt black people were raised not to judge or call the kettle black, so fastly. This is just a shame in all aspects.