I just wanted to let you know whats going on.
I was not judged, according to one of the judges I spoke with. My color, was simply ridiculous. On my way to the gym this morning I approached one of the judges from the show. These are his words "In his opinion of 25 years of judging he never had seen anything like it. Your face was black, color uneven and horrible, couldnt see any muscle seperation, couldt see anything, it washed you out, it was like you were not even there."
I totally agree looking at myself and now looking at myself after i scrubbed this shit off the color helped make me look flat, showed no seperation or lines, no grains and not much vascularity
Totall rookie move! Im first to admitt that.
I had it done right before the show and it was very uneven and actually just terrible. I
Its very hard to travel from Los Angeles to compete, alone. I didnt realize how hard. First of all, no microwave in the room, no fridge and you cant cook. I called ahead of time and was told there will be a microwave in each room and fridge and actually called twice to double check make sure.
That threw me way off and caused me some serious stress, especially the way I am about preparing food etc. It was tough. Being alone, I did worry, stess, etc with no one really to keep my spirits up about it. Lots of pressure from everyone. Hey, not to brag but my lost competition was a USA win. And before that a win at the L.A as a welter. I felt some pressure dont you think?
It was really tough to make sure I did all the right things at the end, even though all I had to do was the same that i did one week ago. Its not the same. The stress fucks your body up!
I had to make weight on thursdy wich stressed me out since i was over the limit leading up to this for a while and I had to cut out food and water. I was flat as hell and looked very small at the weigh in. NOt full at all. Then I never really ate or fillled out accordingly. I should have never come down to this with class. When I was posting my prep pics, i weighed in the low 160's
The number one reason, and I worry about this, I have to get this under control or I will never succeed here is this. For some reason, I stressed badly, causing myself to really hold water or muscle to break down. I knew i was in great shape, lean, but didnt quite look the same, at all!
I dont know why? I started losing weight and couldnt keep it on. i was drinking too much to try to fill out. My whole plan sorta faded out at the end here. Its much worse than just sitting back here and saying you should relax etc. I had so many people telling me different things.
I will not make excuses, this was a good learning experience for me. I did what I set out to do, and thats get in the best shape of my life.
I dont want to argue with Isaac. Like he said, hes a camera man, not a bodybuilder, hes not my friend or enemy. I know hes involved in the sport,. To Isaac, Im a no body, im not a mass monster, im not a big structred guy etc. But to me, hes no body. Thats just how it is. He isnt a bodybuilder or a friend etc. we mean nothing to eachother. No offense. I just dont prefere to start wars on the boards.
But he can post his pics of me not at my best( but thats what he saw)and say what he wants about me. But in a way, i dont blame him, thats what he does and he should do.
But l got some great feedback from some awesome bodyuilders, competitors, judges, etc.
I thought I did an awesome prep for this show, an awesome plan but I had some serious faults. One being over excited about getting in shape early. I probably should have slowed down in order to hold more of the muscle size that I had at two and a half weeks out. I did probably over train peaked a bit early probably and did not show up at my best the day of the show. So In a way, you can say, I fucked up. It is my fault. Of course is
If you read all of my posts. I dont think I ever said I would smoke anyone, beat anyone or even win. How can I ? Im not judging the show. I said I did the best prep and got in the best shape of my life, check out my progres etc. Many of you guys did the rest. Hopefully that didnt come accross as cocky, or arrogant. I think I have really tried to be pretty humble leading up to this.
I have a national win. A class win at the USA. Im proud of that.
That is huge for me! I dont have trainers, prep guys, a team of helpers and Im not a personal trainer. Like i said, im just a family guy that loves to train, workout, do cardio, eat clean and live healthy. I did post my prep pics, but never used them to compare to others, bad mouth anyone or even say I would win or anything. Just posted and answered questions. I explained to many guys, that Im a small guy, and conditioning is my strength. I compete becasue I want to put all the hard work to the test. I failed on this day!
But I have not failed as a bodybuilder. I am in shape all year. I do cardio all year. I carry my food with me all year. I dont half ass my workouts, I train alone. I have an awesome wife, kid, home etc. Its not my life. Im like most of you guys, into it, but just maybe alittle more than some, shit maybe less than some.
as far as training goes:
Im not changing nothing. I scrubbed off this tan and will re apply a normal coat of tan and thats it. I dont have any good pics of me because I looked like crap, so today Im going to work on getting some great pics to share!
I will go to the show tonight and just enjoy. Nothing changes for me. I plan on writing more about my feelings etc but they wont be bitter full of complaints etc. But I do have so much to talk about. Alot of awesome people in the sport have approached me with their opinons etc. I just cant make everyone happy, camera guys etc, friends of some competitors, some competitors maybe. It just cant happen. But I owe you guys a more indepth detail of this if you want to hear. Take care and thanks you guys! One last word. I think the judge nailed the placing appropriately. Especially in my class, after the weigh in I talked to my wife on the phone and told her who I thought would be the toughest guy in the class, he was the guy who won, and deserved it! peace out! alex a
P.S. Thanks guys! Lets keep in touch
