sounds like you're conflicted, if you want to stay lean then you don't need test and other steroids, just lift and diet and do cardio and you'll get a lot leaner, the whole purpose of even using test is to get bigger and stronger, doesn't make any sense using test and then burning the candle at both ends, BTW anyone who is telling you you can't "recover" from 1-2 hours of lifting or running without drugs is lying to you, sounds like you need to grow up and get some mental toughness, a 1-2 hour weight workout is nothing compared to real work like digging ditches all day or running a marathon which people do all the time without a pussy ass needle full of drugs.
No....it seems like you are conflicted

If AAS was just for geting bigger and stronger....than are all these body builders that take AAS on cutting cycles must be retarded, right?

.....no cause AAS can also be used to just matain muscle while getting lean.
And talk to any runner....you don't recover that quickly as you stated! Many marathon runners run 3x per week when preparing for a marathon....1 long run, 1 tempo run, and speed run!
World class track athletes have tested positive for AAS for a reason

And if you dig ditches all day naturally...GOD bless you

..............but it would be a hell of a lot easier with AAS
Also many Marathon runners take EPO injections.....ask Lance Amrstrong....
