gayer than appealling to the TGT Disciplinary Committee, and being at the mercy of CQ's decision for what she wants me to do 
Gayer than saying you have been a good and valued member of TGT Brutal, appreciating your remorse, but I am just very hurt over this. As far as a decision, I hand off to male TGT members as I am too emotional to be rational at this time.
Someone pass me a tissue....